here we lay
soaking up our sins
tangled up in the passion
we can't escape it
life has spit us out
second chances have been wasted
back to our old ways
[should i continue]?
on this road i've traveled before
traveled, then escaped [for a short while]
we can't escape who we are
even if we want change
i can't escape the wrongs i've done
when i'm sure to do them again.

wondering
                                                                (i'm always wondering)
                                                                               my mind is never still
my thoughts always wander
               i can hardly sleeps
                                                                                      restless
                                                                (i'm always restless)
                                            i wish the drugs kept my thoughts at bay

i'm running away
[to anywhere that will have me]
this isn't the place for me
anymore
(was it ever?)
i'm running away
[to anywhere that doesn't remind me]
its all around me here
i need to get away
[i'm running]

[do you really want the truth?]
because i don't want to tell. not a single
word will agree
with you.
i don't think you want to know
[do you really want the truth?]
because i'm sure it will **** you. people
always say they want
the truth. but i know better
i know the secret
so [do you still want the truth?]
i don't want to tell
please don't make me
i can't be the one to break your heart
don't give me that responsibility
not when you're so good at it.

**** me now
where [i stand]
for i'll never find peace
while [i walk]
only where [i lay]

the best part of the day
your eyes aren't open yet
                         [but you're awake]
you are content
                         well rested
                         peaceful still

the three minutes before last nights
          regrets come falling into view
before you open your eyes
          & the harsh sun, shines light
          on all of your mistakes

[ashamed]
time to shower
                         to wash away the sins
how glorious those first moments were

peaceful.

a part of me is dead.
                              [you'll never understand]
i envy your ignorance
it must be nice
                              a part of me is dead
its all my fault
always running
always hiding
i feel like i'm fighting
but
i'm not
                              a part of me is dead
because i'm a coward
                              a part of me is dead
                              [& you'll never understand]