I come before you, my soul naked. Only you can see the cracks and the crevices, the scars and the tears, the corners that I hide in, as you wait patiently for me to emerge.

Without asking, you know the things that I am not brave enough to utter, my hopes and dreams I dare not speak for fear they will only become disappointments in the wind ……you know.  

I pray Dear Lord that you armor me with strength to fight the demons inside and soften the hard edges from scars so that I may open myself to others without fear of the consequences, remembering you will be there when they are too difficult to bear.

I pray you might fill my heart with love to overflowing so it might spill out everywhere I go and share what others seem to have lost, or never felt before.

I pray you will fill my eyes with light and a smile so bright it will light the darkened alleys of others lives……..including, my own.

In the dark of the night
In the silence of tears
The forever longing
Of all of our years

We turn to the skies
Pleading for peace
Whispering soft
As lamb’s new fleece

True as the dark
It speaks through our soul
It lives deep within us
It's part of the whole
You know what to do; there’s really no choice
After the shock, we hear our own voice

Each beating heart, is a part of our own
Walk in it’s body
Live in it’s soul
See through it’s eyes
Watch life take it’s toll

Until you have suffered
You know not what is
Until you have nothing
You truly can’t give

Take me whole
With all that I have
It is yours to keep
Till the end of my life

Broken and bruised,
Scraped with scars
Gained while fall’n
Looking at stars

Glued together
By forever dreams
A little bit tattered
And torn at the seams

Dreams for the future
Dreams from the past
Dreams that come slow
Dreams that came fast

Sparkles in my eyes
To see in the dark
A laugh to use
To create a new spark

With you I am home
My heart finally safe
For you are my love
And you are my Life.

Take me whole
With all that I have
It is yours to keep
Till the end of my life

Turning away for fear you might see the pain and hurt in my eyes, looking to the heavens and begging for the strength not to cry as they begin to dampen and flood; staring at the passing cars in desperate distraction. Silence… the only language I can speak as words choke in my throat and dissipate into my heart. I fear you will never know them. I cannot compete with her memory. If I could replace her limp body with my own and give her back to you, I would, but I cannot. All I can do is sit, sit in …..silence.

Somewhere tucked back in a corner of my heart is the place I hide all, which I do not share; a collection of secrets and hurt and love, too strong to visit often.  A place of quiet, of joy, of pain; a place of safety which no one can touch, but I. Preserved for the life of my heart which grows along with each beat.

In the quiet of the night, in the quiet of the day, they call sometimes, “Come visit us, we know you like no other, like no other ever will. We do not judge, we only feel. Come laugh, come sing, come cry.  We are you, we are the beating of your soul, the throbbing of your body, your dreams, your fears, the truths inside your mind”

Of Nannies ‘n houses ‘n Pink Flamingos
Cars ‘n clothes ‘n foreign lingoes
The rich hate the poor, the poor hate the rich
Did you see “Her” today?
Boy, she sure is a *****.

How did they get here, a chauffeur you say?
‘Cause Mom and Dad are Always away.
They remembered her birthday
Or so said the staff
A party, a clown
Just make her laugh

The rich hate the poor and the poor hate the rich
Did you see “Her” today?
Boy, she sure is a *****.

He stood on the corner outside a shack
Schoolbooks in hand, his lunch in a sack
He remembered his birthday
Or so said his mom
His dad wasn’t drunk
Just tired ‘n run down.

The bad hate the good and the good hate the bad
Did you see “Them” today?
Boy, they sure did look sad.

All the dreams and the dollars
Or missing of such
Builds a foundation or makes us a crutch
Better built on kindness, compassion and love
Understanding that all are the same from above

We all hurt the same deep in our heart
Forgotten, abused, life plays its part
Dressed up in spangles, bobbles or beads
A yard full of flowers, garbage or weeds
Under the crust is a person who bleeds

The bad hate the good and the good hate the bad
Did you see “Them” today?
Boy, they sure did look sad.

Sound asleep he dreams tonight
Holding a truck of red
Brave and strong, he’s a fire to fight
Safe in his own warm bed
               Safe in his own warm bed

The stars at night
They come and go
Bringing our dreams so sweet
Across the dark they ebb and flow
Praying one day we meet
To hold them tight beyond the night
Takes a will of steel and wings to fly

When life seems so far away
From that which we see in our sleep
We close our eyes and chance to dream
Finding new visions to keep

Sound asleep she dreams tonight
Holding her baby doll sweet
A family so close, a family so tight
Close near a fire for heat
                 Close near a fire for heat

The stars at night
They come and go
Bringing our dreams so sweet
Across the dark they ebb and flow
Praying one day we meet
To hold them tight beyond the night
Takes a will of steel and wings to fly

When life seems so far away
From that which we see in our sleep
We close our eyes and chance to dream
To find new visions to keep

Sound asleep he dreams tonight
Young and handsome and smart
A life that is perfect a life that is right
With a woman to share his heart
Now that she’s gone
He just can’t hold on
His eyes close forever in sleep
                       close forever in sleep

The stars at night
They come and go
Bringing our dreams so sweet
Across the dark they ebb and flow
Praying one day we meet
To hold them tight beyond the night
Takes a will of steel and wings to fly
a will of steel and wings to fly