cannot explain the reason behind
why I'm so certin there isn't someone out there who's "mine"
Probably
my destiny
wasn't to be a lover.
therefor why would the creator
waste time on making my other?
Along the way I must have made a mistake
because now and forever I'm cursed with having a void I cannot shake.
If I come to my senses long enough I see
the selfishness that comes from trying.
Because promising my love to the wrong face
and waking in the wrong bed
only assures me that this lifestyle is something that isn't for me.
also it leaves me feeling guilty
for depriving a pair from uniting
all for the sake to relearn something I already know.
all the while, in all I do, it comes from a place true.
I have hope despite my disappointments.