I want to paint my nails in the color of you
So everytime I run my fingers through my hair
It will remind me of you.

It's raining here in New York City
I wonder if it's raining there too
People say we share the same sky
But how can it cry but smile too?

I am scared that I met you only to say goodbye

I listen to Joji
on repeat
while I wait for the train
I don't know if it is your words
Or the night
That keeps reminding me
of the time we  
danced in Subway
With your arms around me
Now I am cold
Now your arms embrace
Someone else
All I am left with is your lingering smell
from your jacket
I am no one to you
I am no one to you at least now
And nothing hurts more
than realizing you never loved me
the way I did
even though I was someone to you.

I try to think back to the last time I was happy
but it has been a while
since I last saw you.

I erase your name
only to write it
all over again

I finally open this door again
I am tired of closing it shut
I am tired of fighting
I am tired of crying
I am tired of gasping for air
So I guess I will just...
...let it go
let it slip
see where it takes me
maybe it will drown me
only time will tell
But for now
I rather hurt
than be stuck in my own little music box
dancing to the same beat that makes me sick