Sweet angels
Don't be afraid
I am here now
To soothe your souls

No more hurt
Worry or stress
Your saviour has arrived

Ill hold your body
When you can not
Ill nurture it back to health and intact

Hurt no more
The pain has gone
The emptiness will come
But I ill be there with a gun

Fight fight little one
I know you can
I'm by your side

This war WILL be won!

Skin
Fat
Lumps

Pulling at my bulges
Pinching my hips
******* in the old stomach
Breathing in

Never enough
Never enough

My body is letting me down
No
Wait

My mind is destroying me from with...

Sleep
A restful state of inner peace
An escape to a land of hope

Resting my head
Blocking the world
I drift into a haze of dreams and reality

Sleep saves me from the
Day on day
Life right now

Sleep is a saviour
With it comes quiet, peaceful
Stillness

A stillness that that I want for eternity.

Please hold my hand
For I am scared
I have no means to
Fight this fight

Please hold my hand
Don't let me go
Hold me close
Create a shell

Hug me now
I need your touch
My life is scaring me
I have lost my way

A single kiss
A gentle touch
A strong embrace
A stroke or brush

I need you now
More than you'll know
I'm running scared
No where to go

Please hold my hand
I'm. Just. So. Scared

Am I stuck
Ridged in stature
Alone

Wanting to dissect
The dark parts of my brain
Wishing that life would just
Change

Not knowing what is ahead
What has just happened
What is happening

Wondering
Wondering
I need a map
A scripture
A point to all of this

Hopeless dreams of a land far away
Grass so green it sooths my soul

Wanting
Wanting
Something .... Anything?

Pretence is a gift
Played so well
Always a game
Never to tell

I am this figure
Who no one knows
Hidden behind
Clothes and veils

Emerging in the darkness
Hiding I hide my face
Scared of the shadow
As it screams the truth

Alone in this world
Never known
Undiscovered to all around

My mind is a mystery
Even to me

My mind is my enemy
The power it holds
The inner darkness
That no one knows

I smile politely
I play the role
Nothing abnormal
Just a game

The mask is on
Glued so well
I question my sanity
But still live in hell

Always surrounded
But so alone
If only the was a pill
To numb this pain

I wonder if I'm broken
No hope for her
It's been so long
I question the blur

No one can see
The darkness within
The smiles are masking
A rage so grim

The confusion I have
About who I am
Tortures me daily
I never can win

The purging carries
A sense of calm
Forcing the food
To numb the din

My body is aching
My mind is cold
The reality of life
Hurts my heart

When will it end
When can I breathe
What am I holding
So tightly within

Only can I release this beast
Tearing my soul
Piece by piece

Food is my weapon
Again the fire
Soothing the flames
That rip through my mind

Burning so sharp
Do I even own
my heart

I need some peace
From this crazy life
That purges my thoughts
With every dart

Food is the bullet to my heart ...

MG