Standing on the shore
waiting for your return.

Too cold to go in
too scared
no incentive.

Running to the tide
but it always pulls back

before I can

r e a c h

You are a room with no corners.
A cynosure within my mind’s eye.
Ineffable emotions you imbue in me.

I am restless for your

touch

skin

smile.

I feel a penumbra of your spirit trailing behind every step I take;
grateful for your petrichor effect at the ending of my days.

Untoward emotions
cascading and clashing
knocking me down

each and every time
you loom into my mind.

I’m walking on shattered glass.
Everyday, expecting the lost and forgotten.

*The broken and breaking.

Reaching out to grab your warm hand.
To entwine my fingers with yours.

Pull you closer.

Hold you tight.

Whisper.

Smile.

Bliss.

Feeling out for you in the darkness of the night and you’re not there.
Clawing at the cold sheets to find your fingers to entwine with mine but they’re no where near.
Empty spaces and lost faces.

Where are you?
Why are you not here?

I’m afraid of the dark when you’re not breathing with me.

*I cannot live

I cannot breath

Unless you do this with me

Reaching out, then slowing reclining
Outward once more, and feel the warmth underneath my finger tips.
Smiling, laughing, loving, crying, screaming and silence.
Heat beating down on my back,
looking over and watching you watching me.

Smile.

Entwined, caressed, longed.
Drowning, wallowing, confused, lost and deserted.

Alone again, naturally.

I don’t know why, and I don’t care.
Only a ghost, a transparency.
A broken film for the time being.

For the time being.

You just watch me, now.
Really watch me.

Let me show you what I’m made out of.

Chasing color and sound
Noticing movement all around
Feel my racing heart pound
Promise you won’t let me hit the ground

I’m tired and I’m delirious.
I’m falling and I’m smiling.
I’m yearning and I’m forgetting.
I’m screaming and I’m laughing.

Echoes of your soft voice trail behind my every thought.