If
only myself
then nevermind
about anything else
even though I should
probably just
be alone

I wish I had the words to tell you how you embrace my heart
How the very thought of you warms my soul
I wish you could feel through my spirit so you would know how deep love lies
How you dance through my thoughts and color me beautiful

Your words lead to your soul,
They have guided me, heart in hand,
To the truth of who you are,
And with bated breath I read them.
For it is there,
That your essence flows through me,
And carries me straight to you

You don't care for me,
and that's okay,
because if I were you,
I wouldn't stay.

love of mine,
I will remain yours
for the duration of my time.

through all the blowing months,
and the seconds that seem slow.
you my sacred Granth.

my heart will yearn,
and control won't be mine,
my insides will forever burn.

my body which in-cases
will grow ever hollow
and the fragments of my heart in precious places.

And we sit here pouring:
Tea into our porcelain cups
Our hearts out to each other
Lift burdens from our porcelain hearts

We look at people passing
And wonder where they go
If all the rushing strangers
Are real or just for show

The maddening crowd it thickens
The waves are here again
I'm drowning in existence
Your hand is all I hold

You tell me that you're cold dear
I offer you in zest
The knitted sweater that I have
That keeps warmth in my chest

You kindly shake your head
And demand for something warmer
I carefully rest your head
And fix it on my shoulder

These bones of mine
They do not
Offer much protection
But rest assured
That they will
Lift off all your tension

'Is December coming early?'
You wonder as if true
And rub our palms together
While coldly the wind blew

December was not yet due
But the end was indeed near
I sieve your hair with my hands
Like leaves with morning dew

Trickling, so did the rain
As we hid beneath the heat

Seated under the cafe lights
That light up me and you

The sky was clear as day last night
Save for a few stray clouds in the distance
I saw a star
And then all at once, I saw many stars
They were all twinkling
In unison
As if the great design of nature
Allowed them to do only so
They were copious like sand
And I wished that I could grab them
And fill them in my hands
And I’ll always remember the night
That night one star led me to many
That night I saw the silver shimmer
From stars that could have died ages ago
But their shine has not changed one bit
Over the lightyears
That night the freckled sky
Was dotted with incandescent pebbles
That night the lilac sky
Enveloped all my worries
As I nosedived into the waters of my bed
With the stars
Watching over me

I cross my heart
With wrinkled fingers
Drenched in wasted time

I look around
All life is gone
The crowds are empty now

I set my eyes
Upon the throne
I failed to grace upon

And set on fire
All my hopes
Of gold and silver skin

I break the mirrors
With my soul
Of omnipotent black

Retreat to where
I most belong
With salt shards in the wind

I try to fold my hope and
stuff it into my back pocket.
Leaving it with the closest
thing to change...

I
Wished
My thoughts
Lived up with
My words
And my creativity
Ably Portrayed  
Itself in
The canvas
And the conversations
Made sense
To those people
Drifting away
But
Nobody knows
what they're
looking for
And nothing makes sense
To me
Now
And then.
And maybe
Forever.