Crab claw,
more strength than a martyrs speech,
It'll take your finger right off
so don't get to close
you curious little thing.

don't stick to anything
defy gravity
creep up the walls of glass

no heat
super conductivity
zero viscosity

helium 2
your a super fluid
and you show that

drip out the bottom
of the seemingly solid mass

helium 2
your a super fluid
and you show that

redefining how i think
about cold liquid gas

What looks?
if i were blind
i could feel
my instincts are truth
and to me
you will be to
i could feel truth with the sensitivity of a flower
cause i am a flower
no eyes
no ears
no nose
no skin
no mouth
no teeth
no nails
no feet
just truth for all its magnetic wonder
the majesty of god is me
it feels the truth pouring from you
and everything around

Did you ever feel like screaming
did you eve feel all alone
Its not their fault so don't blame them
your downfall was your own

What a recluse
Here I made you a neuce

What a recluse
Just use the neuce

The one I was gonna use
before i cut loose

I used to be a bird
I can still feel the wings
Constantly flapping inside my head

Oh how i want to leave
This place and all these things
My life and my body

Whats on your mind
you towering tree
you statue of energy
are you too profound to hear
or can you listen to me
It doesn't matter anyway
you don't have to teach me anything
I don't think I could even handle your attention
let alone your magnificent energy.

What a surprise
i ****** up again
im causing my own demise
im so self destructive
i cant let myself win
i just putt off
and inevitably **** it
and throw it off.
Whats the point
lets just live it
this life
because theres not much more time
because i know i'm gonna die
the best part is
Ill know exactly when.
Im sorry i disappointed you
so many times
your the only people
i cared about
knowing too much
about my life

Red jacket sitting on a park bench
who did you belong to
who did you protect
from the rain and the snow and the sleet and the cold
you were tossed away
you were summer sold

well live like dogs
running through empty neighborhoods
reclaimed by the land
the we fought off for so long
it cant help but grow
you don't know it though
your world in the screen
your minds melded with the gears

taking my time to gather my mind
before i lay down to rest

no need to drift away,
carrying emotional castaways.
its meaningless in sleep
they just make phantoms to keep us attached to our daily griefs

Ill sled in the snow
Ill glide over you
and over the grave sites
of people we knew
the pillars of stone
are reaching towards you
and the branches of life
are letting you through

The feeling sneaks up on you
          Like a ******* rattlesnake
     Except this wont **** you

Why is it we forget
we get so caught up in each others eyes
we forget to look at the sky
we forget who we are
who we love
scold it.
Whats the price of your soul?
cause you sold it.
To the routine that makes men seem
to like killing everything

You better learn what your doing here.
cause if you don't know
your doomed to be
another phantom in this clustered place
always coming back
no matter how many times the stage dies
it has to repeat the building of this place
cause where else are we going to go
nowhere else can house a lost soul
the universe is the only place to go
anything else is so illogical.

clench your body when you think of your past
sit back and ponder all the **** that you had
the good
the bad
those ******* friends that you hated
but it was fine because everything was elated
by the chemicals we shoved deep in our brainstems
made everything fantastic again
like were kids
running around
not trying to understand how we stick to the ground
ignorance is a blissful mindset
you don't have to think about all of the *******
if you don't see it
it doesn't exist
so lets run
and not have to worry about anyone.

Join the guard
Hide the guns
this is mine and mine to bargain
im still and holding the gaping, breaking, scarring bottle
of ***
dumb *** in the stomach of a dumb drunk
waking up dead
keeping down in the hole
water ****** through the limbs of trees
stars piercing the sky of immense black
light breaks through the night
dim lights of a fluorescent bulb
training souls of the fear that comes with the unknown
my soul is still and dark and wanting more
dark that will remain blind and pure
holy is the air and sky binding to our plain
my reality is as fake as my senses
im tortured in this time and still my mind is awake
i just want to sleep for the better
better things lay in the stale dreams that i have
recurring is the blight of disease
im awake and i have to see it
my people are hurting
and i
i have to stay awake to see them scream
these nightmares seem so real
as my love rips my heart
as my love hurts me
im still yours my mentor

my time
spent like wind or a river flowing
going to something new
growing wings
becoming

so when the waves ask with forceful brunt of physical emotion
when the skys shatter with a terential light and booming sound
and the grass grows with a grace like a dance reaching towards the light of life
ill see the station of my world blooming like a shroom from the strands of energy that penetrate everything

Bizarre and oblique
this world doesn't speak
but dazzles in ways of knowledge

we learn how to fly
and how to identify
with our body and our minds

so lets fall back into it
and have a dialogue with an alien
maybe learn something that hasn't been
back at the place we all wake up in

Excessive threats lead to fear of death
i know your scared but what do you want me to do
their bigger than you
and you can put me out with swing and shout

call the cops i know their ready for this
why would they care unless they can get a kiss from a harem
who is attractive enough
to save you from the big tough.

tissue box ran out an hour ago
using toilet paper to
wipe my nose
i know i seem to be so distant but

im just another **** up
im gonna be their laughing when you get stuck
even though ive been there before
i still howl
whats with you
cant you afford
to make it out
its so much better after the glass has left you
when you leave back all the bottles of lost love

I want to do something to make an impression
something that everyone will see was necessary

maybe sing another song about altering me
just so i can see
some things that wouldn't be visible in our daily reality

put on a show
make it something to marvel
bring in the crowds and await their surprise
when you tell them that they're there for a movement
and begin marching into the skies

now  show em' what you been doing
with the short amount of time
that you've been given to fulfill something
that will open all of their minds

sit back and hope for the best
nothings the same
and you begin to regret
the change

finally
everyones
on the same page

whats it like to be ignored
its not so bad
but i do get a little bored

however its amusing to see
things from above
from the view of a tree
watching the drama unfold beneath me

below me drift problems
that float in a sea
thats coursing
through the majority

people argue
people cry
people fight
people lie

I know its unappealing
its just another thing
to get used to while you wait
and hope to see
the good people set free
from everything
that ever made them crazy

"if we don't get attached
we never lose anything"

Jailed in an incantation of growth
i change and my life stays the same
no longer satisfied by my home
the dogs howling in the distance
the microwave going in the neighbors
the screaming kids running like beasts down the streets
my madness
the asylum that im stuck inside
my mind pulsing with a thought of tragedy
this tragedy where love dies and the work goes on
i need to leave
escape this place and be the bird
my feathers mimic the colors i like
green, red, blue, and gold
bay head taking in the sea
empty glass ******* air
the resonance of the empty like a hum from the moon
the darkness like the breaking untouched night
things are falling apart
and im staying the same
my skin like the coat of the rich in the winter
i wear it with pride
i wont ***** myself with the repetition
i wont breed flowers here
taking a chance on the life of another
similar
wanting
a complement in time
you and i are the same
still recognizing the shame in routine
lets leave
and watch the birds drag themselves in the dirt
like the bees scraping fragrance of flowers

You and i
lets fry
watch our minds dissolve.

Edit reality
by thinking strategically
and using our will to form.

Just try to hold back
i know you want to react
to every chemical forged
By mens hands
working to find
the best ways
to kickstart the mind
and show us what were here for.

I cant remember things that happened a couple days ago
my brains in a fog and it doesn't know which way to go
chemical contemplation and geometric light shows
much more fun than anything the adults know.

Im having such a blast
but it cant last
I gotta wake up eventually
Im having such a blast
but it cant last
I gotta get back to work today
I cant just stay in bed
dreaming away
pretending im a part of the party.

Holidays on a broken sea
decayed boat rocking on churning waves
sun barley breaking through the sky
lives dying far away and far beneath
love flying for now and fleeing later
people and things come together in mutual disgrace
i say goodbye to a horizon
seeing for the first time like a child
torn from the far forgotten planks of memory
i see now what is and what always will be
my light will once again become one
one with a holy eye that sees all and learns nothing
because all is known already
on this tundra like universe
ready to die
ready to be born
always waiting
seeming unlike any other
it is just like any other
cause its everyone and everything

oh when you go
dont go without me
cause you know
i know the way

you will get lost
because your heads so dazed

i cant let myself fall into the drug
cause if i fall
i wont hit the ground

just fall till
my mind recovers
until i find my way back  
to the spot
before i left

wheres my feet
my legs are burning
wheres the bed
i wont wake up

silhouettes of a dancer
dancing in the leaves
that fall off the april trees

i know your fine
you'll find the time
to get back to your mind

i just hope you
get back in time
to find mine

Fond admission
of my own mistakes
but its not enough
to make you forget them

You hold a grudge
for gods sake
you just cant live with them

I know you want to stay
but you need and explanation
well ill tell you why i cant pay attention
but you'll think i'm insane

My mistakes
the ones ******* up my days
come from the beasts
living inside my brain

my routines changed
i gotta make up some names
for my friends
who you nor i can explain
because their bodies
are in the same state as my mental brain

My mistakes
come from the elephant in the room

my friend ed

hes rather huge

400 pounds and hes getting bigger

12 feet tall and he's getting thicker

hes shouting loudly
his voice is booming

hes constantly distracting
hes always moving

going wherever i choose to go
making fun of whatever i know
and if i dont show some interest
he'll grow
get angry and throw
and makes a mess
make a show
destroy serenity
in this place you know

he gets upset if i don't give him some eyes
if i don't show him that i know he's alive
my awareness is spent
on his selfish cares
he always tries to give me a rise

so im sorry but i don't have time
i need to confine this beast of mine.



im sorry but your mind
i think its too late
you believe you see a man
who ruins your days
and steals your eyes
your gaze
is his prize
theirs no one here
but you and i
i love you
but your insanity
is no surprise

I sit in the dark
in the deep of night
with a cigarette
with a computer
with some music
wondering and reminiscing on myself
in the forest
in this magnificent forest in the clouds
on the mountains in some foreign country
and i think how
i am a life
i am a light
i am an intern of the world
just watching as it teaches me all it knows
slowly but surely
i will understand
maybe soon
maybe not in this life
but someday
i will finally understand

Teach me
im watching
teach me
im wide and willing
im still and waiting
im soft and maleable
i need teaching of how things are
of how things should be
of the light that bounces off and from all the trees
i see their light and it sees me
i feel its care for me strecthing past my imagination
streams of flight and concsious ripples carrying me towards the one
the once bright gleam of the sun peaking past the mountains
as we circle
what is will always be
whats here has always been
whats learned is constantly growing
until forgetting happens
well rise towards god
and finally forget
in one terential struggle of accurate compulsion
we want more
and in the process we forget what we have learned

the sea's a show that gawks at the moon
what a lovely seat ive acquired this afternoon
a balet of this display deserves some show of gratitude
I think I, the moon will chose to embrace you
ill enjoy the feeling of falling into your mass
no matter the reprecussions
ive had enough of the cast
id rather be dead
than floating around
i the moon
chose to be with the ground

over saturated flower trying to breath from the lungs in my chest
the birds suffocating in my skull are breaking their bones in an attempt to get free
boy in his home wants nothing but to leave
to breed in himself a heart that is as free as the bird in his sky

A compulsion to navigate the unmarked range of my mind
a feeling compelling me to relive the stress
by taking what i know
from the sensory and the time
and create a story image or phrase
something appealing
and say it to the lot
bring them in to see
how hot my head turned out to be.

So pristine and cognitive
show me something wonderful
in total awe of what you know
i lose myself in your dazzling show
im only aware of you my friend
my brains blank like copy paper
its ready for you to reprogram.

I saw your ghost walking around at night
I was dreaming that you were dreaming
in the streets
in the town tonight.

No need for words
dont keep a tempo
your routine goes up in flames
cause your dreams can see over the tops of the mountain range
far past the point were the sun peaks

Now that weve lost
could we finally move on
im fine with losing
as long as i can keep moving
keep living
keep *******
life is a playground
life is a school
life is a prison
and i will take it how i will
i will use it
i will play with it
i will conquer it
and do with it how i see fit
as long as im still enjoying myself
then there is a reason to keep going

I am
I am like a butterfly on the beauty of the flower
I am
I am like the cigarette burning down on the lips of your pretty face
I am
l am like the passion of a brilliant man who will never be anything
like the waves as they break and sink into this sand
like the birds song sung in the depths of the woods never to be heard by us
like the sky shattering sound of thunder in the middle of the ocean
like the blood bled by the soldier fighting for his life
and i am sitting here near the earth
wanting nothing
needing nothing
i will wait and see what there is to come
seeing the sun
dreaming like every other animal on this earth
hearing the beat of the light in our minds
and creating with it a wholesome type of world
that is fitting to us and us alone
I am alone
and so are you
we islands will see from a distance the kinds of things each other can do
and be astounded by it
I am in wonder by you
by all of you
please keep on
you know what to do
so keep on doing it

I can do whatever i want
no matter how many times you collapse my wave
ill ride it on
till the crack in the horizon
gives way
to unimaginable colors
and perfect shapes
signifying things
beyond this space
but still close by
reality is in our mind
not something that is easily defined

After so much time
you still cant be angry.

After all,

the only thing im guilty of
was observing your biology.

Cancer in my heart
as i walk through the hollow days
turning to your voice
thinking something will come
nothing but a disappointment coming
strange how the threats arise from all ends
killing and flaming in all sense
im dead in my heart
i feel as though i need to **** myself
in a way that will destroy the parts i have grown with
this means nothing
i have no hope in my past
but my future is wide and gaping
and i will do with it as i will

nothing but a dream
taking
scarring
capturing
everything that i am
i will take and leave and drink
i will hold my state and continue
i will do
as i want to
i will continue
like the frequency of a horn
carrying through this air
until the sound finally dies
on the ears of an impretionable boy
ready to take on all this thing has to offer

look up
look at the sky
look at the sun
the thing that gives us life
look at the ground we come from
covered in green
catching light
in between
the pores
that open up
connect the grass to the rays that come
from that ball a blaze
it keeps burning
it keeps turning
a cycle
till were dead
till were all dead
it shall be our king
our god
our answer for all things

measures taken to keep the peace
within the mind
the head is nothing but  a shell
filtering through memories
but mainly experience
its what were here for
to take that experience with us
to join with something bigger
god
maybe
but more likely a cloud of awareness
that encompasses everything
our soul is an awareness
and the world keeps us preoccupied
with great things
but now
we keep ourselves preoccupied
with other people
with wretches
with stars
the potential comes from the earth
and our potential is seized
by focusing on these false idols
these other people

resting strictly to recuperate
my heads apprehensive to whats taking place
lying in bed watching the face in the cealing
am i as distant as im currently feeling

dragging
on me
on that cigarette
i hope your well
wherever you are
whoever you may be with
i hope your happy
sitting
standing
walking
running
dancing
carefree of us
and everything
that has or may happen

ill grow with the grace of the winds
with the power of the waves
with the beauty of a flower
ill grow with the brutality of the hunt
with the ugliness of the ****
with the humiliation of abandonment
ill die like every other person in this world
ill grow like every other person in this world
ill live with a passion that burns in everything that drinks this air
ill wonder like a child
at the massive substance of being dissolved into this drink

open mouths
ready to take you in

they grow from the ground
and theyre so destructive

Cause for alarm
Good heart pumping the head
Horizons nice view
I see you well
I loom
Scraped knees on the side streets
Shout of the balcony into the sea carried by a wave
Smoke eye burn
Smooth skin riddles with historic woes
Sunsets and dawn and the evening
Wave goodbye to the cool air

My stomachs rising
I feel my insides contract
i am terribly sick
until I wretch the uncomfortable mess
with a violent howl
that my organs direct
they know what to do
so i let them handle the rest.

I know they'll make me better again.