tissue box ran out an hour ago
using toilet paper to
wipe my nose
i know i seem to be so distant but

im just another **** up
im gonna be their laughing when you get stuck
even though ive been there before
i still howl
whats with you
cant you afford
to make it out
its so much better after the glass has left you
when you leave back all the bottles of lost love

Trying to establish a style
i cant let myself run wild
refine your lines
and maybe with time
you'll see yourself
trapped and immortalized
within the paintings
that you drew
that other people where drawn to.

A compulsion to navigate the unmarked range of my mind
a feeling compelling me to relive the stress
by taking what i know
from the sensory and the time
and create a story image or phrase
something appealing
and say it to the lot
bring them in to see
how hot my head turned out to be.

Lack of a name
doesnt make it worse than the pros
and their tame nature
cant see past form, or paper
technical and refined
your art has such fine lines
artistic living in my wild unrefined mind

Willow beads
late night deeds
done onto you
no one else will bother you
while you sleep
all by yourself

Im catching the air in my head
cutting it with a sword housed in my dome
******* with the perceptive properties
of sight,
sound,
ecetera.

taking my time to gather my mind
before i lay down to rest

no need to drift away,
carrying emotional castaways.
its meaningless in sleep
they just make phantoms to keep us attached to our daily griefs

resting strictly to recuperate
my heads apprehensive to whats taking place
lying in bed watching the face in the cealing
am i as distant as im currently feeling

the sea's a show that gawks at the moon
what a lovely seat ive acquired this afternoon
a balet of this display deserves some show of gratitude
I think I, the moon will chose to embrace you
ill enjoy the feeling of falling into your mass
no matter the reprecussions
ive had enough of the cast
id rather be dead
than floating around
i the moon
chose to be with the ground

Final thoughts of a mind in contemplative state
grinding at the thought of someone waiting for your phone call

overwhelming,
not enough,

a contradiction

my own thought of you is only one of love
so why is such a note so hard pluck
even though without a doubt
i know its the right note to be played
hesitation amazed
stunning
cant think of a saying
to capture your lovlieness today

After so much time
you still cant be angry.

After all,

the only thing im guilty of
was observing your biology.

I can do whatever i want
no matter how many times you collapse my wave
ill ride it on
till the crack in the horizon
gives way
to unimaginable colors
and perfect shapes
signifying things
beyond this space
but still close by
reality is in our mind
not something that is easily defined

Why is it we forget
we get so caught up in each others eyes
we forget to look at the sky
we forget who we are
who we love
scold it.
Whats the price of your soul?
cause you sold it.
To the routine that makes men seem
to like killing everything

You better learn what your doing here.
cause if you don't know
your doomed to be
another phantom in this clustered place
always coming back
no matter how many times the stage dies
it has to repeat the building of this place
cause where else are we going to go
nowhere else can house a lost soul
the universe is the only place to go
anything else is so illogical.

What a beautiful flow
of the words you know
that you learnt over years
of standing on your toes

childhoods over
so get composed
the fun is over
your track is closed

Did you ever feel like screaming
did you eve feel all alone
Its not their fault so don't blame them
your downfall was your own

What a recluse
Here I made you a neuce

What a recluse
Just use the neuce

The one I was gonna use
before i cut loose

look up
look at the sky
look at the sun
the thing that gives us life
look at the ground we come from
covered in green
catching light
in between
the pores
that open up
connect the grass to the rays that come
from that ball a blaze
it keeps burning
it keeps turning
a cycle
till were dead
till were all dead
it shall be our king
our god
our answer for all things

I saw your ghost walking around at night
I was dreaming that you were dreaming
in the streets
in the town tonight.

No need for words
dont keep a tempo
your routine goes up in flames
cause your dreams can see over the tops of the mountain range
far past the point were the sun peaks

Fond admission
of my own mistakes
but its not enough
to make you forget them

You hold a grudge
for gods sake
you just cant live with them

I know you want to stay
but you need and explanation
well ill tell you why i cant pay attention
but you'll think i'm insane

My mistakes
the ones ******* up my days
come from the beasts
living inside my brain

my routines changed
i gotta make up some names
for my friends
who you nor i can explain
because their bodies
are in the same state as my mental brain

My mistakes
come from the elephant in the room

my friend ed

hes rather huge

400 pounds and hes getting bigger

12 feet tall and he's getting thicker

hes shouting loudly
his voice is booming

hes constantly distracting
hes always moving

going wherever i choose to go
making fun of whatever i know
and if i dont show some interest
he'll grow
get angry and throw
and makes a mess
make a show
destroy serenity
in this place you know

he gets upset if i don't give him some eyes
if i don't show him that i know he's alive
my awareness is spent
on his selfish cares
he always tries to give me a rise

so im sorry but i don't have time
i need to confine this beast of mine.



im sorry but your mind
i think its too late
you believe you see a man
who ruins your days
and steals your eyes
your gaze
is his prize
theirs no one here
but you and i
i love you
but your insanity
is no surprise

Concentrate on the designs you see in your mind.
They'll take you places you want to go,
and show you things you want to know.
So pay attention
or you'll never know what your missing.

Thats how they do it.
Lovers.
They just rub their souls together.

This is your god now
so you know
you have to listen to me
or you will eternally be unhappy

Together
you and myself
reinforce my opinion
well trap them
double the ego
its a defense from insanity
and we cant have that, can we?

God looks up toward the sky and sees the face of infinity
That invokes the imaginative premise of our minds.
Forever so beautifully held together by each other eyes.
No matter what shape we take.
Our world will house our soul.
On and on
until it explodes.
but the cycles continues the sad show.

The feeling sneaks up on you
          Like a ******* rattlesnake
     Except this wont **** you

Im sick of the routine
constantly keeping constant
day in and out
staring at the same thing everyday
******* i need some change

Im having such a blast
but it cant last
I gotta wake up eventually
Im having such a blast
but it cant last
I gotta get back to work today
I cant just stay in bed
dreaming away
pretending im a part of the party.

Theres nothing i can hope to
accomplish anytime soon.
So whats the point
I think ill just stay in my room.
Its cynical i know
but what can you do.
I just love the solitude.

Oh i missed you when you came around
and i cant seem to find anyone else
to sing along
as i strum the chords to my song.

I didn't see you
when you came around
and thats my fault
cause i cant follow a plan
now i'm alone and i feel bad
because you said that you couldn't find me
and that made you sad

it's my fault cause i wasted time
on people who live on lies
and don't see the real prize
they just pride themselves on their own greedy lives
they're not like us
we see that the real prize is in each others eyes.

Im sorry i missed you
but i was high and slightly aroused
an ignorant mindset
maybe i should get treatment
but ill still love you
and think of you
almost all the time.

What a surprise
i ****** up again
im causing my own demise
im so self destructive
i cant let myself win
i just putt off
and inevitably **** it
and throw it off.
Whats the point
lets just live it
this life
because theres not much more time
because i know i'm gonna die
the best part is
Ill know exactly when.
Im sorry i disappointed you
so many times
your the only people
i cared about
knowing too much
about my life

oh when you go
dont go without me
cause you know
i know the way

you will get lost
because your heads so dazed

i cant let myself fall into the drug
cause if i fall
i wont hit the ground

just fall till
my mind recovers
until i find my way back  
to the spot
before i left

wheres my feet
my legs are burning
wheres the bed
i wont wake up

silhouettes of a dancer
dancing in the leaves
that fall off the april trees

i know your fine
you'll find the time
to get back to your mind

i just hope you
get back in time
to find mine

Break out the guns
and shoot someone
today is the day
to show us you're brave

Pull the trigger
dedicate
never look your corpse
in the face
it's an ugly grace

What a disgrace
how could you run out to ****
the neighbor boys
with all the toys

the politicians grow up
to lust for blood
and never let you know
whats going on

they're their to gain
you cant trust the game
revolt in a glorious uproar
and uproot the society
that humiliated humanity.

this thing i have it's a part of me
this thing is limitless
it's my creativity
and when you live
it interprets things
as pictures or words
or other pretty things.

My stomachs rising
I feel my insides contract
i am terribly sick
until I wretch the uncomfortable mess
with a violent howl
that my organs direct
they know what to do
so i let them handle the rest.

I know they'll make me better again.

my heads in the air but my eyes face the ground
not much of a view and theres nobody around
its not lack of interest i just need to think
no time to gawk at the beautiful green

your stems all twisted round so your flowers face the ground
why cant you keep up with my needs
your general love feels like a crowd

what will i say when i get another chance in time
ill just read another line from some book i had stuck in my mind
you'll love my words
you'll remember them when you die

you'll chose to be forever with me
as long as im alive

just cruising along
waiting for someone to get on.

i can take you for ride anywhere you want to go
just don't ask me to take you home
cause there's no longer a home for you to go back to
im sorry but thats the truth.

Crab claw,
more strength than a martyrs speech,
It'll take your finger right off
so don't get to close
you curious little thing.

I will create for my friends
the things that they love
ill present it to them
when there heart becomes void of

I will elate my friends
with the things that they love
so they can have one last thing
before they become societies glove

My friends are my allies
ready to fight for me
they deserve what they acquire from me.

Red jacket sitting on a park bench
who did you belong to
who did you protect
from the rain and the snow and the sleet and the cold
you were tossed away
you were summer sold

You and i
lets fry
watch our minds dissolve.

Edit reality
by thinking strategically
and using our will to form.

Just try to hold back
i know you want to react
to every chemical forged
By mens hands
working to find
the best ways
to kickstart the mind
and show us what were here for.

Soul on fire
eyes wander
legs flail

cant focus on a single detail

pull out your heart
from your head

show it to all of your funny looking friends

i'm so gone i don't care
about anyone

i just need to remember to breathe

so far gone
all i see is a hallucination

chemicals are a curious thing

don't stick to anything
defy gravity
creep up the walls of glass

no heat
super conductivity
zero viscosity

helium 2
your a super fluid
and you show that

drip out the bottom
of the seemingly solid mass

helium 2
your a super fluid
and you show that

redefining how i think
about cold liquid gas

clench your body when you think of your past
sit back and ponder all the **** that you had
the good
the bad
those ******* friends that you hated
but it was fine because everything was elated
by the chemicals we shoved deep in our brainstems
made everything fantastic again
like were kids
running around
not trying to understand how we stick to the ground
ignorance is a blissful mindset
you don't have to think about all of the *******
if you don't see it
it doesn't exist
so lets run
and not have to worry about anyone.

I want to do something to make an impression
something that everyone will see was necessary

maybe sing another song about altering me
just so i can see
some things that wouldn't be visible in our daily reality

put on a show
make it something to marvel
bring in the crowds and await their surprise
when you tell them that they're there for a movement
and begin marching into the skies

now  show em' what you been doing
with the short amount of time
that you've been given to fulfill something
that will open all of their minds

sit back and hope for the best
nothings the same
and you begin to regret
the change

finally
everyones
on the same page

whats it like to be ignored
its not so bad
but i do get a little bored

however its amusing to see
things from above
from the view of a tree
watching the drama unfold beneath me

below me drift problems
that float in a sea
thats coursing
through the majority

people argue
people cry
people fight
people lie

I know its unappealing
its just another thing
to get used to while you wait
and hope to see
the good people set free
from everything
that ever made them crazy

"if we don't get attached
we never lose anything"

So pristine and cognitive
show me something wonderful
in total awe of what you know
i lose myself in your dazzling show
im only aware of you my friend
my brains blank like copy paper
its ready for you to reprogram.

Dont forget it,
don't regret it,
don't look back and cry.
Don't look at me
when you can't see,
cause i can't lead the blind.

your so neat
your so clean and composed
your so sweet
your the nicest girl i know
look at me
turn around and strike a pose
its just me and you
living on the tips of our nose

get dramatic
cause a scene
make sure everyone can see your mean

wake up keep the routine
do the same thing every ******* morning

get up and go down the hall
glance into the mirror and see it all

Your no-one and you see it
the worst part is appearing defeated

You've lived like a loner
feeding of former
fighters who fought
to keep the order

you know your gonna die soon
in these conditions no-one could conquer

you believe it wont matter when life turns to ****
cause you where the best at everything and all you did
you did so well so look a little better you should feel so swell

when you really see what it all means
try to preach but no-one will please
you with their time

they are way to busy living their lives
who would want to listen to the *** who thrives

no-one living of the land
no-one trying to survive

why waste our time
on a man with a free mind

I dont think its wearing off
were gonna have to talk all night long
talk till im up again
talk till im calm.

ill never get tired
hearing you sing
ill never get sick
watching your body swing

Your the most
entertaining thing

I promise you
that all i do
will be for you

we,ll drive past all the sites
cause were on the route to the view

well live on the road
underneath the stars
and watch cosmic clouds of dust
surround around mars

cause were going
oh were going nowhere fast
but our minds are racing the stars
their on a fast track

I dont think i know what im doing
just trying to get some kicks no matter how im feeling
so exciting this place is
a new wonder i should be exploring.

I know how it hurts you so i keep it up
i keep the feeling
how can i not its all too appealing.

Whats on your mind
you towering tree
you statue of energy
are you too profound to hear
or can you listen to me
It doesn't matter anyway
you don't have to teach me anything
I don't think I could even handle your attention
let alone your magnificent energy.

as long as i don't talk
the words will continue to dance for me
as long as i don't watch the show
they'll show me how to create my own spectacle
as long as i don't want things
they'll show me what they really mean
and if i don't get attached
the words wont ever leave me

Bizarre and oblique
this world doesn't speak
but dazzles in ways of knowledge

we learn how to fly
and how to identify
with our body and our minds

so lets fall back into it
and have a dialogue with an alien
maybe learn something that hasn't been
back at the place we all wake up in