Join the guard
Hide the guns
this is mine and mine to bargain
im still and holding the gaping, breaking, scarring bottle
of ***
dumb *** in the stomach of a dumb drunk
waking up dead
keeping down in the hole
water ****** through the limbs of trees
stars piercing the sky of immense black
light breaks through the night
dim lights of a fluorescent bulb
training souls of the fear that comes with the unknown
my soul is still and dark and wanting more
dark that will remain blind and pure
holy is the air and sky binding to our plain
my reality is as fake as my senses
im tortured in this time and still my mind is awake
i just want to sleep for the better
better things lay in the stale dreams that i have
recurring is the blight of disease
im awake and i have to see it
my people are hurting
and i
i have to stay awake to see them scream
these nightmares seem so real
as my love rips my heart
as my love hurts me
im still yours my mentor

ill grow with the grace of the winds
with the power of the waves
with the beauty of a flower
ill grow with the brutality of the hunt
with the ugliness of the ****
with the humiliation of abandonment
ill die like every other person in this world
ill grow like every other person in this world
ill live with a passion that burns in everything that drinks this air
ill wonder like a child
at the massive substance of being dissolved into this drink

when i die
i will decompose
and become
part of the soil
the plants
part of life again
my soul will dissolve
and once again become one
with the cloud of knowledge and awareness
that is this universe
that is this world
that is your life and my life
i will die
but i will become once again
part of that thing that is all and everything
i look forward to it
to giving what i have learned to it
to being part of god
or whatever the hell you want to call it

I sit in the dark
in the deep of night
with a cigarette
with a computer
with some music
wondering and reminiscing on myself
in the forest
in this magnificent forest in the clouds
on the mountains in some foreign country
and i think how
i am a life
i am a light
i am an intern of the world
just watching as it teaches me all it knows
slowly but surely
i will understand
maybe soon
maybe not in this life
but someday
i will finally understand

I am
I am like a butterfly on the beauty of the flower
I am
I am like the cigarette burning down on the lips of your pretty face
I am
l am like the passion of a brilliant man who will never be anything
like the waves as they break and sink into this sand
like the birds song sung in the depths of the woods never to be heard by us
like the sky shattering sound of thunder in the middle of the ocean
like the blood bled by the soldier fighting for his life
and i am sitting here near the earth
wanting nothing
needing nothing
i will wait and see what there is to come
seeing the sun
dreaming like every other animal on this earth
hearing the beat of the light in our minds
and creating with it a wholesome type of world
that is fitting to us and us alone
I am alone
and so are you
we islands will see from a distance the kinds of things each other can do
and be astounded by it
I am in wonder by you
by all of you
please keep on
you know what to do
so keep on doing it

nothing but a dream
taking
scarring
capturing
everything that i am
i will take and leave and drink
i will hold my state and continue
i will do
as i want to
i will continue
like the frequency of a horn
carrying through this air
until the sound finally dies
on the ears of an impretionable boy
ready to take on all this thing has to offer

Now that weve lost
could we finally move on
im fine with losing
as long as i can keep moving
keep living
keep *******
life is a playground
life is a school
life is a prison
and i will take it how i will
i will use it
i will play with it
i will conquer it
and do with it how i see fit
as long as im still enjoying myself
then there is a reason to keep going