Oh speedster Lance, Great Olympian Hero,
Hard peddler, you,the mighty french conqueror,
Triumphant slayer of the deadly breed cancerous,
Rode fast,won faster ,arms strong, pistoning legs,
Streaking,weaving past mortals lesser,or fairer then?
Was one aim JUST victory, or did anything else matter?
Did you ride on the straight and narrow, but forgot the path?
Many finish lines crossed,but never the true race started,
How did the lion heart wilt? The mind astray went?
Hard toils,grits grim, sweats wasted, false celebrations all,
Come now to naught,cause all isn't unfair be love or war,
Oh Lance,how did you wither unfair? Where did you fall?or Fail?


--------Thoughts on watching a mighty hero fall.----------

1-DESIRE:                                             4-UNCARE:
All of me now desires,be deep            Distracted ideals,a nature human                                                        
Wholly Inside of you,Pervade             Heavenly woven synergies broken                                      
Your mind, limbs, Heart, all pores      Power of pleasures mortal, killing magic                              
Soak in your salty sweat warm           Snapping wands,bonds dearly formed  
Mold dancing to a one united.             Sweet temptress transient, conquering care.

2-PASSION:                                                ­       5- DISILLUSION:
Bodies’ lithe now twined serpentine         We betrayed, cheated US, in neglect,
Straining desperate, for a merger             Holes in hearts bleeding precious Love,
Spiritual, souls both for unison striving    Admitting indifference cruel, ruining stealthily
Hearts two pumping as one to fuse.          Our paradise gained, won so easy, lost terribly.
Sacred is everything, this carnality too.     Chanced eternity wasted, destiny unmeant made.

3-LOVE:                                                   ­              6- REALITY:
Ensconced tight in warmth’s mutual,           Tempered in time space, 3-LOVE loyal savior sole,  
All is for sacrifice on our loves altar,              Enshrined indestructible, in being, memories relived.
Suspended thoughts, egos burnt ash            Pleasures now cynically felt, loves truly responded,
A Love Mindless meditating deep,                No dilemma human; I flow generous, as an epitaph,
In some state mystically enlightened.            Thanking destiny for this reclaim, my love,faring well.

home after long,
kittens in balcony,
in pots rare!
I shout shoo,
they wonder who?
mischievous eyes stare,
question home true!
momma she mews,
let them be,
dont hurt please,
pleading so true!
love coiled springs,
at life divine so,
new bonds formed,
offering out I go.
pails of milk,
just laid so,
they come hesitant,
pawing,now licking!
mother twining round,
kids happily filled,
right back in my pots,
sudden tears unknown,
I cry with momma cat!

Here now by many paths convoluted,
Ever trying the thoughts new, acted on.
Heeding just,streams conscious flowing,
Changed and morphed in an instant blinking.

Hair long,then shaved, now streaked orange grey
Suits to jeans,tore them,robes spiritual,now **** pray!
Was straight,turned metro,for all open,but curious still,
Body clean,got pierced, now adorning pasts tattooed!
Gurus, philosophies many, still a fool ever journeying.

Heard Bach,reggaed to Marley,wood-stocked,now fused.
Loved intense,let go easy,Kama sutras experimented on.
Traveled afar,lived as a local,now a foreigner everywhere,
Hip-pied from smoke to grass,yoga to parties raved hard.

Against wars, sat in for peace elusive,fought all,now stoic,
Never shocked or surprised,took all as came,now strong.
The set mind,everchanging,the physical a compliment cosy,
Unrecognizable now,existing totally, being happy, normally?
Many shout, freak! I smile,walk on to my home in Bohemia!

Confessions of a Blessed Hedonist.( tri word line)  
  -1-                                                    ­                -3-
Lived this long,                                                 what makes change?
Time just flew,                                                   a metamorphosis divine?
Mind playing games                                        worms to butterflies,
Heart desiring ever.                                           saviors, angels, messiahs?
extreme cravings doused.                                 what makes humane,
opiates in zillions,                                               friends, lovers, brothers?
Cocktails, a million.                                           Destinies unknown working,
Endless revelries futile,                                       in times unconscious,
Loves instant, genuine.                                       drunken slumbers dead,
Clean beds crumpled,                                         uncaring deeds cruel,
Checkouts late rewarded.                                   Unmanly acts shameful.
-2-                                                    ­                       -4-
Friends dear betrayed,                                         maybe one dream,
Away bartered loves.                                           among nightmares plenty,
Much monies made,                                            that one love-germ,
Abandoned ethics many.                                    under in-differences heaped,
Gods all rejected,                                                  faint glimmering self,
Except the Hedonistic!                                         beneath mountainous egos,
World enjoyed fully,                                             a sparkling life-sign,
Life wasted lovely.                                                 in cemeteries silent.
Morphing every second,                                       causes matter not,      
Into grandiose nothing,                                         by destiny’s graces,
Skeleton cynical final.                                           gratefully unscathed still.

Streched out gazing, on the sands,
Of one more of the common seas,
An orange orb setting slowly apparent,
Shiny path of light heavenly,reaching my feet,
Taking me briefly,to creations wonderous,
Minds magnanimous,hearts Alexandrian,
A short utopia of a world universally real!
The unrests forgotten, all toils borne stoic.
All shall pass,Endurance is all, truly Human!

As the path sinks into the deep waters dark,
To shine in worlds other,rays of morning hope,
I know they shall witness the same, some morning!
Night lights of revelry beckon me,the traveller ever,
I merge in them,the sunset feeling sacred in my heart,
Praying,May it hold true for all people all over Earth!

Now-I- am buried,burnt and dissolved,
One with this earth,blooming in the trees,
Flowing in waters, scattered in the skies,
Resting in the deep seas,dust cosmic in space,
What Destiny carried me, to this nothingness,
I care not,I live Here, and Now gone Eternal!

WISH I HAD ALL SEEING CATHODE RAY GOD VISION, DISCERN DYING LOVE IN YOUR SMILING EYES,
INDIFFERENCES GERMING, PITIES FORMING, WORMING UNCARES, WARMTHS  IN HEARTS COOLING,
ELSE A SIGN, A ***** WITHER, EYES WRINKLE, AN OUT WARD SIGN YOU CHANGED, HATE SEEDED!
THE SOUL DYING, SHOWED IN YOUR PRETTY FACE. ANY SYMPTOM, HORNS GROWING, SKIN CORNING,
MUCH AS I TRY, OUT OF BOUND ARE INNARDS REAL, THE MIND FATHOM ALL, IS A TASK HERCULEAN!
SO I TRY THE HEART, AND MISERABLY DO FAIL, IT DOES KNOW ONLY A THING, MY LOVE STRONG BUT INCAPABLE!
LOVE HAS TAKEN FLIGHT, SO I DO TRY WORDS POETIC, ESSAYING SERMONS, SELF CUT ****** BARE.
BUT THOU ART A SHELL, HARD TO BREAK, SOFTNESS INSIDE, UNKNOWN TO YOU, THUS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME!
FLOWER, IF YOU CAN, SO I CAN DRINK.ENABLE AND ENNOBLE US, COME IN TO EACH, FUSE AND BLOSSOM!
ELSE MY ANGELS, MAKE THE OUTWARD CHANGE, BASED ON THE INSIDE, A SIGN TO UNDERSTAND AND FATHOM!
OBSOLETE IS MIND, SEEMS HEART MORE SO.MAY SIGNS SPEAK AND SHOW ALL, THE IN ON THE OUT, PLAIN TRUTH!
WORSE STILL, I MAY SEEM THE SAME TO YOU, THE WORLD, THIS I AM NOT, NOR ARE YOU. LETS BREAK IN!

Are you the Truth,I begged of Time,
She said no,I have a past and a future!

Are you the Truth,I asked of the Space,
She said no, I have vast vacant places!

Are you the Truth,I questioned My words,
They said no,We have too many Tongues!

Are you the Truth,I implored of all Hearts,
They said no, we beat for too many spirits!

Tell me the Truth,I asked of minds great,
They said Search inside,Its beyond Knowing.

I called for Old Truth, My loyal, dying Dog,
He ran across, now Licking my unsteady hand!!

Random always are birds sitting on a wire,
Their smelly stains scattered on my truck.

Random are our minds thinking, Friendships,
Loves happening, wealths,winning and losing.

Random are births,Lives and their purposes final,
Faiths,their select gods and their nirvanas ultimate.

Random are the winds blowing,the waves smashing,
The clouds raining, fiery volcanoes and fires burning.

Random is death physical, for us and all our stars,
Their babies, milky ways,galaxies,universes and all.

Random ever is a fixed time and space,Unknown now,
but with a certainty terrible and Hope,oh, so wonderful!

Random thus I struggle, for a comprehension orderly,
Sensitively, and hoping for a final destiny, pre-ordained!

where are those times,now forgotten,
without words but of feelings,our loves,
so distant,nary a memory in brains of any!
charlie awakened, a coiled spirit so human,
somewhere in my soul deep, buried numb!
serpentine and ready to spring,feel! Love!
Hard it bites my heart! eyes,they weep much,
for things lost so many, foolish,willing,mindful,
i wipe my tears not, they cry out for what i lost,
in joy they flow, unknowing, for what i am getting back!

*Reacting after watching city lights of charlie Chaplin!!

IS IT NOT THE SAME HEART ANCIENT,..SINCE ADAM AND EVE?

TO THIS DAY AND AFTER ALL THIS TIME, THUMPING ETERNALLY?

BLOODS THINNER,VEINS CLOGGED,BEATING FASTER,DYING SLOWER;

BYPASSED,SURPASSED, STILL IMPASSIVE, STENTED NOW AND STUNTED,

BOILING ANGERS TURNING THICK, SINEWS IN HATE GRINDING TIGHTER,

VENTRICLES IN DISCONTENT COATED, CHILLED VALVES ICY UNCARING,

ARTERIES PUMPING, BEATING TO THE DRUMS OF HATE,RANT AND RACE,

EVER SO OPEN FOR  GREED, HATE UNREASONED, THE QUICK BUCK STILL,

WELCOMING FENCES,VISAS, HIGH WALLS DIVISIVE AND BARBED WIRES,

RARELY, SO RARELY, DO WE LET IN, THAT ANGEL STRANGE CALLED LOVE,

ALWAYS TIME FOR A MESSIAH, A SHEPHERD,TO BORN AND TRANSFORM,

LEAD US ALL TO THE BRAVE NEW WORLD,TO PEACE AND MANKIND REAL

BREAK THE FISTS CLENCHED TIGHT, MINDS CLOSED  AND SOULS KNOTTED,

MAKE US LIVE, LOVE,SING AND DANCE..EVER FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE.

GODS CANT  BE WAITED FOR,TOO MANY ARE THEY,REMOTE SO CELESTIALLY

HERE AND NOW, WE ARE THE MESSIAHS,THE GODS,FOR ONE AND  FOR  ALL.

ALL SPIN.ALL FLY.ALL MOVE FOREVER,
US, THE EARTH,GALAXIES AND STARS,
MOTHER HURTLES,IN ABANDONED ORDER,
IN VERY SAME CIRCLES,WITH HER SONS,
ALL SEEM FIXED N SOLID,TRUE,REAL,
IT NEVER IS,WAS,EVER SHALL BE,
CIRCLES SHRINK, WIDEN,INFINITY BECKONS,
THE MINDS CAN IF THEY HAVE HEARTS,REALITY!
WHERE ART THOU? COME LIVE WITH ME NOW,
R U REAL,A JOKER,UNIVERSAL,EVER CHANGING,
MOCKING,MY MIND,REASON,TRUTH,DO SO.
I HAVE A HEART TRUE,WE ALL DO,U CAN NEVER CHEAT,
MY SONS SHALL HAVE THE SAME,IT SPINS,FLIES,
AROUND YOU,NEVER CHANGING,EVER AWARE,
HOWEVER YOU TWIST,TURN,SHALL IT WATCH,
AND PERCEIVE TRUE,YOU CAN NEVER FAKE,CHEAT,
THIS HEART ANCIENT,YOUNG, ETERNAL AND COSMIC,
LETS PRAY FOR THIS HEART,FOR US,FOR ALL TIME TO COME.

I question Never the Dark Reaper,
Neither His claim final, on my Dregs.
At the back of my mind He sits calm,
Brooding on His last,Lousy Victory.

I know him not, But I grant Him,
My final sleep,The last Weary bones.
Life is Mine.Mine are all values sacred,
Mine is this Heart,and all that flows out.

His Reality makes Me keen,so Aware!
Of my time,my deeds and My Pleasures!
He goads my SELF, to fly so high and true,
So beyond His clutch, an Infinite Being!

Bright and most Human am I, in His shadow,
Pains hurt less, Joys feel a million fold more!
Loves are Loveliest, feelings felt true and sharpest,
I revel grimly wise, in total abandon, truly Free!

Max Chelur.

Drunk to the brim, so stone cold sober,
Loved to the hilt,still so avidly hated,
Friendly from the heart, yet enemied,
Seeker by Soul,but how godforsaken!
Thinker by Mind, but thought Roboted,
Doer by action,but so ****** futiled,
Am I a man of will? Free or ****** in Hell!

Hurtling through time eternal,in spaces infinite,
World a blur,we are but specks of stardust finally
We come unknowing,in a snap leave,continue on
Seeing all, star births to galaxies,born black-holes.
flaying around for meanings,truths and who-am-i-s
Search for loves bad,hates good,higher philosophies,
Believe in religions amorphous,burn and **** for them.
On stoic flies universe,impassive,in indifference cosmic
like my life-snap,watching and Comfortably Numb!

Change is love, to learn,n to Teach,
Change is Peace, that may never breach,
Change is joy,at a slow, patient speed,
Change is future,now seen n then freed!!

Change is action,but in no way mean,
Change is a heart,bright n burning Keen,
Change is them,from monkeys to men,
Change is us, from confusion to Zen!!

Change is violent, but so **** fickle,
Change is Instant,its just coffee n pickle,
Change is good,turning against the evil,
Change is an Angel,Fighting the **** Devil!!

Change is false,When just rolling on the lips,
Change is a ****,riding in wallets on our hips,
Change is false,on paper n in our frothy beers,
Change is real,when our hearts conquer all fears!!

Grace floats in an angel pure
into hearts open, welcoming
a breeze cool of love soothing,
sunshine of care,worlds heavenly.
drunk of scents, senses, all nectars
basking in heartglow, time still,
easy springs, framed in wonder.

chilling in winter,catfooted slyly slow
grace frosts icicles in bosoms  sharp
knifing out lifeblood of embraces hard
out seeping union leaves trails separate
an unison of ours now just me and you.
where you flew our bird of lovely magic,
Leaving barren, desolate pain behind.

Was it destined, are our hearts ******?

BEING AWARE,IS THAT FEELING,
OF MY FEET SINKING SOFT,
INTO WET GENTLE SANDS,
TOES SPRINGING FORE AGAIN,
STEP AFTER STEP THOUGHT,
LOOKING BACK, WATCH MY PATH,
WALK ON AHEAD, HAPPY AND PROUD.

She flies random beautiful,seeking me, my sweet nectar,
Thats but her nature, seek the juice, the honey of my heart,
I crane and bend so she may get, all she wants,stay a bit longer,
Dip into my soul, feel the love,of my earth, my roots below,
Impatient wings fluttering, the sucker scraping my valves.
Fluttering and falling are petals,pain shooting to the roots,
Weak flowery embrace ineffective, off she flies, free, gay and filled,
I let her go, stoic, my roots burned, but gladly still a flower,still me!

MAX CHELUR.

THE ONE.
Were a cosmic One, a whole, and shall be all again,
Cycles are births, lives and deaths, dancing around the one.
Here betwixt a myriad, of real apparent, of unseen change,
To be One is to be ever born, to be a broken many to die.
Be you, be me, be truth, The One can change never.
Once were starry dust atomic, and now cold hard men.
If the real is here and now, so was it there and then.
Nebulous gases and fumes to selves,egos and dollars.
Universal being to visas,borders and fragmented creeds
Evolution, so terribly wonderful, Monkeys to gods,
Mindless to rational, primitive to humans super.
Proud of mind, material, empty of heart, dead of souls?
Aimless we journeyed, still do, reality being change universal.
On shall we go, to newer realities, frontiers unknown?
A billion light years, other earths, unknown worm holes?
Carrying the seedling precious, of the never changing One.
Eternal, kindling faintly under the burdens unreal,
A licking flame, in us all, singeing now and then, reminding,
You, me, us are the One, lest we forget, the unchanging One Real.
All time, all forms, any space and in an ever changing all.. One are we.

MAX CHELUR.

LOVE, HATE, WISDOM, FEAR, WEALTH… KEYS MANY ARE TO LIFE IT’S SAID
NONE IN BIRTH IS AFRAID,WISE,HATEFUL,GREEDY,NONE SHALL BE SO IN DEATH.
LIFE! ITS A NOW,A PRESENT CONTINUOUS,DIES HERE THE PAST,A FUTURE BORN
NOW,A SUM TOTAL OF PAST,FUTURE AN EQUATION INEXORABLE FROM HEREON.
FUTILE IS FUTURE MIRRORING PAST, AWARENESS MY PRIMER FOR A CHANGE FAST.  
WHEN ALIVE ARE HEARTS PUMPING,WHY ARE MINDS AND SOULS DEAD BARREN?
ISN'T HEART THE GOOD EARTH ALWAYS AND MIND THE TREE WISE OF BANYAN?
I RID THE DISCONNECT, BY GRACE, HAVE A MINDFUL HEART, A HEARTFELT MIND!
LIVING THE STAID REALITY OF LIFE, LOVING, HATING, THINKING, BEING WISE,FOOLISH
KILLING, FORGIVING, PHILOSOPHICAL IN A CRUELLY KIND WORLD OF PARADOX.
IS THERE A REALITY DEVOID, OF LIFE AND DEATH, LOVE AND HATE, GOD AND RELIGION,
OR TRUTHS,LIES, TIME-SPACE,SOUNDS AND SILENCE,EQUANIMOUS PEACE AT WAR?
IS IT JUST A PLAY, OF THE MIND AND HEART, DESIRE AND POWER,******* UNREAL?
GOOD VERSUS EVIL?
I LIVE BY THE HEART,IT DOES STOP AND THE MIND,OH DOES IT ROT!
UNFEELING HEARTS AND UNTHINKING MINDS, THESE BARRIERS SLOWLY I CROSS,
BEYOND IS THE BEING, THE EXISTING, INCAPABLE OF THE UNREAL, DIVINELY AFAR,
A VOID SURREAL,UNFEELING YET KIND SOMEHOW, UNLOVING YET CARING SOMEHOW
UNSAD, UNJOYOUS, UNAFRAID, UNWORLDLY...ATTRIBUTES NONE AT ALL! UNBEING??
I KNOW NOT IF IT’S GOOD OR EVIL, IS JUST UNBEING,UNAFFECTED BETTER SOMEHOW?
IS THE FREE UNBEING THERE,JUST TOTALLY BEING HERE?! BACK TO A REALITY RELATIVE!
GREYS ARE MANY, IF DARK BE HATE AND BE LIGHT LOVE, MID-GREY IS THE WORLD, HOPE CAN MOVE!
FROM THE MOUNTAINS DOWN I CLIMB, JUST, WITH PRECIOUS BAGGAGE, UNPACKED TO MAKE SENSE,
OF THE REAL IN THE UNREAL,THIS ONE WORLD IN INFINITY, WITH  ITS ANGELS AND DEMONS,
I CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH REALITY; AND UNRAVEL JUSTLY; ELSE IT COMES LIVES WITH ME ANYWAYS!
OR IS IT ALL JUST INEVITABLY INEXORABLE, JUST A HERMITS DESTINY?!