when i had a voice
i could scream the emotions
out from my tattered lungs
beat my vocal chords to death
with apologies and pleading
stain my broken lips
with vengeance and promises
i knew i couldn't keep

but my voice only brought
destruction
and chaos
shattering the world around me
leaving stains in souls
and holes in innocence

it is easier to be silent
to hold my monstrous tongue
behind solemn lips
while the truth rages on inside
behind my cold eyes
my lips are sealed
and so is my word

We set fire to each other
Burning from the inside
Destroying what we have left
To give each other
But we smolder together
Every touch brings more heat
You pour lava down my spine
I light the fire in your belly
Our passion burns brighter
Than any star could ever dream

You lit me from within
And only you can tend to
The fire
This flame will only burn
As long as we acknowledge it
My volcanic heart is pulsing
If we both erupt
There may be no fixing
The damage

I've lost my appetite recently
Nothing seems to
Quite satisfy me
Anymore
I mistake hunger pains
For crippling stabs
Of devastation
This emptiness
Swallows me whole
My hollowed body
Rejects any attempt
At nourishment
So I suppose ill simply
Waste away

Even the stars
Seem dimmer tonight
Blowing cold air into
My bones
Weighing me down
With the weight
Of a million galaxies

Even the stars can't save me tonight

I'll be the Rapunzel to your Eugene
Because you climbed my walls
And showed me the light
I'll be the Rachel to your Ross
Because you're my best friend
But part of me will always
Wish I was more
I'll be the Allie to your Noah
Because every fight ends
With more love than before
I'll be the carbon to your organic compounds
Because even though there may be
Some negative reactions and unstable bonds
In the end we can't be successful
Without each other
I'll be your crying shoulder
And relieve the weight of the world
From your own
I'm not perfect
I cannot always be what you want
Or what you need
But I will always be here
Trying my best
Hold my hand
And I promise
I won't let go

There is nothing I can do
To make you want me
In your life
Like I want you in mine
And I guess
That's what hurts
More than anything

I am not your friend
But you will always be mine

i havent written in months
i can put my emotions to words
my jumbled imagination
that flips through thoughts
like they're
tv channels
i never needed to write
i could speak with movement
telling my story
through the tips
of my fingers
to the soles
of my feet

but im writing now
ive been writing
quite a bit
because my language
grew mathematical and cold
i bragged of numbers
i was paraded around
like an equation
that praised technicality
you took my voice
and gave me legs
but made me speak
in your language

take your legs
take your language
this is my voice
this is my soul
i won't ever let
anyone
take it from me
again

you and i will never stargaze
like you promised
in a message
so i couldn't see you
lie

you and i will never see the city
like you promised
to my face
but i still heard you
lie

you and i will never meet again
i promise
you *******

you and i may not speak
in a week
or a few months
you will forget we happened
i might

you are full of empty promises
and i am full of too much hope

I am on trial
And my sins
Are my testimony
My defense is pathetic
Crumbling under the weight
Of your
Disappointment
I cannot win this case
When I can't even
Believe myself
Everything I say
Can and is used against me
In your court
The jury is your peers
Convicting me on one night
Of blurry evidence
I'll wear this number
Forever burned in my memory
Guilty as charged

im searching
for what we had
in careless lovers
uninterested
in stargazing

they're searching
for what we had
in careless not-so-innocents
craving
affection

i play this lie
speaking my lines
perfectly
all too aware
that i am just a
number

i cannot be careless
with love
i don't want to
waste myself
i'd rather be alone
than play this
game