I have enough
Of my own conflict
And frustrating feelings
Flooding my brain
And seeping into my
Thoughts

I cannot please everyone
I won't even bother trying
I will not waste my time
Groveling at your feet
Begging for forgiveness
When I have done
No harm

I make mistakes
Because I'm human
But I will not apologize
For who I am

Play me like a
Marionette
Tighten your hold
On the strings of
My emotions
And control my motion
With the flick
Of a finger

I am growing weary
Of this puppet show
It's been too long
Since I told my own limbs
How to move
Cut the chords
And watch me dance
On my own

If there was one thing
You could change about me
You would make me
Less insecure

But the reason
I see myself
This way
Is because I have never felt
Like something worth
Treasuring

Break me in two
Breathe your cursed name
Into my lungs
Pump my heart
Full of your toxic
Presence
Twist my arm
Behind my back
And pour your
Manipulation
Down my spine

Leave me on the floor
This is just another
Love poem

I have always thought
That you were the
Only person
Who could make me smile
When it seemed impossible

But you are not here
I am alone
With my tea
And my overwhelming
Thoughts

I am the only one
Who can cheer myself up
Because I am the only one
Who can truly
Bring myself down
And I deserve better
Than to wallow
In my misery

I would be a fool
To ignore the past
But I have been a fool
For letting it
Control me

Change is inevitable
For the future
And impossible
For the past
All we can do
Is look forward
In belief that we can
Make it better
Than before

You and I
Have changed
As individuals
And as a pair
The mistakes we have made
Have changed us
And molded us
Into who we are

Maybe the future us
Could be better
Than the past us
Take a leap of faith
With me

I need to know
That I won't wake up tomorrow
To cold sheets
And a new hole
In my heart

I need to know
That a few sips
Or a whole fifth
Won't make you
Forget me

I need to know
That I can give you
All I have and more
And you will stay
Until our inevitable
Separation

I need to know
That you will be
My best friend
And believe in me
When I can't believe
In myself

I just need to know
That love can last
Forever