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Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Let's do **** together
**** some ghosts eat some zombie innards and outers
eat me
I got big lovely brains
taste like warm honey
stickiest of the icky
mickey mouse club house
getting twisted up in your zipper
bring it on down to my dimension
the fifth
pleading for mercy or attention
maybe to be left alone with a stack of cash
crash the waves against the starry night
kiss me you fool
****** ***** ape
gaping at a film reel like it's more interesting than my emotions
****
need some distractions
always some abstraction
of false affection or sobriety
gimmee a break, a piece o' dat ***
bongrips to make you feel blind
yeah that's it
what's his name?
Still remember
flash back to brown eyes and sweet stares
smiles to make a belly shrink and swell
selfish in needing a gentleman
wanting to turn him naughty
make him an inmate who hasn't seen a woman in 40 years
too late
fall down some stairs
wake up with bruises, confuses the neighbors
shut up I'm fine
always fine
always lyin
God I love the summer
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Cute, sweet boy
his eyes light up and gaze
yes, ******* gaze
like I'm some beautiful princess or wonderful mind
when you drunkenly look down into me
and it feels great
like I'm a human
your human
and I want you to wrap me up in your arms and tell me how you love things
maybe teach me some more guitar
tell me how I have the prettiest face and the blondest hair again
wait
why aren't you being so forward anymore?
This is the last time we will be together
why aren't you kissing me?
You tried the other night
I resisted
I was afraid:
of being a *****
of a kiss leading to more
but now I'm ready
I want the kiss and you're being a gentleman
you take me to my house and tuck me nicely in
then kiss me goodnight
just once and say see ya
I ask for another
you sigh and give in
but I want more
and more and more and more and more
until you're all gone
but what?
You left me
tucked up tightly so that I can't even chase after you
you're gone alright
never again to look into me like I'm great
never to make me feel special
I wanted you, you know
I looked forward to you
wanted you to touch me all over
would have made you feel like a stud
but no
I had my chance to fulfill my "needs"
and I acted like you owed me ****
like respect
I really just wanted to makeout
and cuddle
but no
I was afraid
and now you're gone
****
only **** boy to show interest
and now you'll only make my heart sad.
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Every day at a quarter to three
Jasmine drinks her cup o' tea
she takes is slow
two lumps of sweet
and when she's done
falls to her feet
she prays and preys
for bugs on the ground
she licks them up
spits them around
she then gets up
walks to the door
steps outside
calls neighbors "******"
she's not so nice
though was once sweet
was probably all
the kitchen heat
gave her nausea
made her sick
made her marry
a stubborn *****
no air conditioning
not a soul to help
he beat her mercilessly
made her whelp
then she cried
she gave a shout
and knocked that ******
out.
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Had another break down
she thought about the boy
stupid boy,
stupid for many reasons.
Instead of feeling
she drank some magic
it tasted like purple fires
and she went blind for a second
then the problems began,
a ****** nightmare
men with the heads of horses, genitals of squirrels,
tennis ***** fell from clouds
grass ate feet
she fell
ground swallowed her whole
she ended up in a cave with some gnomes
they taught her about tragedy
how it isn't really real
just a shame to be thought of
how her heart ache was just her head's way of perpetuation the propaganda of television,
how melodrama was addictive and the most dangerous substance on the planet.
She was dumbstruck at her foolishness
then she was released
back into society
she saw the boy on the street
she said hello
he responded
and she moved on down the street
never thinking of the boy again
except when she was most lonely
and even then
she found solace in the pulling of lonliness,
strength in sadness
its powerful taste giving her energy
and the harmless little boy never bothered her mind again
she was new
broken and better than ever before.
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Not one for sunshine, she preferred the shade. Understandable. Arizona can be a real ***** if you know what I mean. Even the cactuses are dried stiff and developed sun-callouses. She was tired of drinking sand in her water, sand in her air, lungs grity like dentist tooth paste. She was also blind, never saw the yellow of the sun but knew of the light, its brightness its harsh ways. She was aware of the prickly green cactuses, the rattle snakes with their innards cooking during lunch time. This woman wanted to live with trees now. Desert had been a past time to dream about during her youth, she heard of the bitter dirts and dry airs and miles of flat land broken by large mounds of mountain (that she never saw but trusted existed). Her nephew was a grown *** man, coming over every now and again to keep her some company while her company slowly reduced her hours, told her to lay off working, her bones were getting brittle, would snap, a hip would pop, and really the way she stared without seeing into their eyes was just a little unnerving. She hated her job. Hated her nephew, who even without seeing his face could tell he was a large, sweaty pastey guy who constantly wiped his face with a towel. She wasn't sad or unpleasant, just real, honest with herself and others in ways people couldn't quite appreciate just yet, not yet. Not until one day they realize all isn't peachy and fine, and that everything is insane, and then they realize the insanity is what makes everything worth living for anyway. She could see this. With no sight, she could see and she would smile, then frown because she could feel the curiousity of onlookers trying to figure her out. People weren't for figuring out, they were for watching and moving along as if nothing had ever happend. And in this way, she moved.
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Fun costs too much money
just gimme a job
anything
watch yer kids
feed yer dogs
wipe ***** from floors
sell organs
pawn heirlooms and the clothes off me back
need some money honey
have a future
maybe, if I have some money
want a roof later on
even a tent will do
just need some *****, stupid
money.
Matalie Niller Jun 2012
Let me rest me head on your shoulder
such a good pal
am i annoying you?
Do you think my hair is messy
or my eyes blurry?
Am i talking too much?
Sorry i laughed too loud
i don't mean to be annoying
just the way i am sometimes,
i promise i'm not so bad.
Do you respect me?
i'm not a **** like the others
not at all
i won't even kiss you if you think i'm repulsive
do you still respect me?
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
sorry i touched you
sorry i apologize too much
just say it's okay,
that i'm not so annoying
am i?
i promise i'm respectable,
i'm just so sorry
i'm me.
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