Well there goes another chance for love,
Glad I kept my guard up that fits like a glove.
Protecting me from the pain,
I don't know if I'll ever let a man in again.
Yet again it ended in exactly one month,
I told you that you could be honest with me and that I'm very blunt.
I'm not gonna put my all into something that didn't feel right,
I had *** with you and you said it was just in the heat of the moment that night.
I shouldn't have given you that chance...
I should have made you work on your romance.
But good luck to you,
I guess what I gave you didn't do...
I hope you find the girl who won't make you feel like a fool,
Bc when I loose this weight it'll be hard for you not to drool.
Oh and just remember when that comes around I'll be gone,
So don't try to come back Bc just like chess your the pawn.
And I'm the queen,
You can't move backwards and you'll want to, you'll see.

I keep trying to find something to fill this empty hole,
But the more I try and fail the more it gets old.
Idk what to do but I try to keep moving,
Feeling like a lost soul wondering around asking myself what am I doing?
I feel so alone but I'm surrounded by ones who love me,
Feel like nobody cares but everyone try's to make me see...
That they need me in their life,
Most of them look up to me but others sneak behind me with a knife.
Maybe my purpose here is to lift others up,
But I can barely hold myself let alone all these other ppl it's tough.
I've tried to stand strong for quite a while,
I can't give up and leave a huge pile...
Of ppl who need me,
They are the ones who get me by daily.
I love them all too much to disappoint anyone,
But I'm starting to sink and I can't seem to see the sun.
I'm covered in darkness but they are my light,
I push the negativity away and try to do right.
Holding my breath and giving it all of my fight.
But its pitch black now and they are all out of sight.
Then I realize there's still someone I need,
God put me here for a reason and to him I'm his seed.
He talks me through and it waters my soul back to life,
See in the end he tells me there will be nothing left you have to sacrifice.
One day you'll have no misery as long as you walk with me,
He's says you see through me is the way that you will ever be free.

There you go again coming back into my life,
Bringing up old memories cutting through me like a knife.
Leading me on and knowing what your doing,
You don't want me to move on so you decide to keep *******...
Me over, and over just to keep me around.
I'm not trying to be anybody's rebound.
Especially not yours,
Bc for some reason I still want nothing more,
Than you be yours...
That's why I let you hold me in your arms,
Even though we know it's doing nothing but harm.
Well harming me at least,
You just wanted to know if my feelings for you have ceased
But now that you see  they haven't and you do what you do best and leave...
After all night you trying to make me believe,
That you actually just might care...
But you don't and you leave me lying there in dispaire...
Yet I still wait for another night,
That maybe just maybe you might...
Treat me like you do every once in a while,
And that's all I need to have that special smile...
The one you give me when your with me,
Treating me like you want it to be...
Just us two and nobody else with no regrets,
Until I wake up days later with still no texts.
I can't help but feel stupid Bc I know exactly what's going on....
But that's what happens when someone gets too close to your heart.
You made me feel like the ugly duckling that became the swan.
I've never felt so beautiful before...so no matter how long we are apart,
I know that my heart will always have an open door...
For you and only you,
But until then here I am stuck again feeling nothing but confusion mixed with the blues...

Well there I go declining another good man,
Who just wanted to be their for me and hold me in his hands.
Who treated me like a princess,
And all he wanted was nothing less,
Than for me to love him back.
It try and try to give my all,
But I can't seem to get past this depressing wall.
My heart was broken one too many times,
To where I can't put back the pieces Bc there's too many lines.
That don't match up and it seems like this puzzles never ending,
Hoping one day the right guy will come along to straighten it out and I get my happy ending...
But until then what do it do?
I feel like all I'm gonna do is push them away.
Will I learn to love him too?
Maybe one day instead of running I'll find the guy who makes me wanna stay...
I want that feeling back that we call love,
But I'm stuck under this wall an I cant seem to rise above....

They say it's the most beautiful thing,
But it can turn out ugly.
It gives you such a high,
But it can be the worst crash you've ever felt.
It's the best medicine you've ever had,
But it can be the deadliest poison you ever took.
Can make you never want a night to end,
To wishing there were no more nights to spend.
It makes you look forward to waking up the next day,
Or it can make you not want to wake up at all...
Nothing that can make you feel every single emotion.
There's nothing more powerful in this world than love.

Funny when your mind thinks one thing but your heart feels another,
After seeing you with someone else makes me wonder.
Why I have this feeling in my stomach,
A thousand nots tangled up it's makin me sick.
One minute I think I'm fine and don't need you,
Yet the next I catch myself crying and feeling blue.
I said I didn't like you but I'm starting to think I do...
Every time I kiss you it's like an electric shock goes right through me,
So many butterflies and thinking maybe we could be.
But my mind comes back and I hit reality.
I let you go twice for similar reasons,
Idk if this is something that will last or if it's just another season.
That will fade away into the next,
I no longer know what to expect.
My feelings seem to change everyday,
And every time I try to talk to you about it I just don't know what to say...
Maybe I just miss having someone care about me,
To hold, to love, and to talk to daily.
But I don't want to interfere with your new fling
So I'll sit back and let you be happy even though it still kinda stings.
Leaves you in a place that's not very sunny,
Turns out I guess it never really was funny...

There's this girl who was as happy as can be,
Until she got let down repeatedly.
Her ray of beautiful energy started to dim,
Her chances of caring about much got pretty slim.
She woke up one day and realized,
Finding happiness through yourself is idealized.
She came to her senses and decided to let the past go,
No reason to keep them around bc it's time that they should know.
She's done.
She deserves better and by cutting you off she's finally won.
Your silly little game you think you can play,
Keeping your ex around while your talking to a new girl is so cliché.
She deserves a man which clearly you can't be.
Grow up a little first then maybe you can keep a woman like me.
Have fun juggling girls,
But be careful my dare karma will take you for a whirl.
Needless to say I was that girl.
So here's my goodbye to you,
Coulda had a second chance but that's just another thing you blew.
Poor girl she doesn't even have a clue.
Well anyways now it's out with the old and in with the new...