Only in darkness
Is it possible to see
Light at tunnel's end

Monster

There's a monster in my home
With a soul as black as death
He's lurking somewhere nearby
Waiting with baited breath

He'll jump out and attack me
When things don't go just right
He's waiting for just the moment
He wants to start a fight

This monster I know from childhood
Although his face has changed
And yet I let him in again
Am I the one deranged?

This monster hid it well this time
A devil in disguise
Until he reared his ugly head
It was too late when I got wise.

And now I'm stuck here in this house
He'll never let me get away
This monster thinks I owe him
A debt I can never repay.

I slowly descend into hopelessness
Wishing the day would come
When I could go away from here
And find my hearts true home

The monster lives off my pain you see
Built a wall I can never get through
The saddest thing is you'll never believe
The monster with me is YOU

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I'm waking up
Your touch is fading from my skin
Familiar and distant at once
It was delicious and real
Painfully hot and magical
Sparks tracing through my flesh
Everywhere your skin touched mine
I believed it was real,
Your eyes convinced me
Though you didn't say a word
I was falling, spinning couldn't stop
Every cell in my body begged for it
I tangled you up with my hair fingers legs lips
And we fell giggling madly into the abyss
What a cruel trick to wake up and you are gone!
It was only a dream.

My heart, what happened to you?
I watched you fall apart
And slip through my fingers like sand.
So many times we've been through this but it never gets easier.
Just when the wounds heal
Fresh jagged tears appear.
I burn the past to dust
Watch the ashes blow far away
But it gives me no comfort.

My days, where have you gone?
I check you off like scratches on the wall of my cell,
In this prison of my own mind.
I realize I can never get you back but I will treat the next day with no more regard.
My days that have been for nothing.

My hands, why do you turn on me?
I abuse myself for never being good enough
And everything is my fault.
I don't deserve your gentleness
It's all saved for someone else

My mind, why do you betray me?
These thoughts are not my own.
They were planted by everyone I ever loved
Their words and actions cut like swords
Because I let them.
I trusted them not to.
Should have known better.

My heart, what happened to you?
I think you've turned to stone.
Nothing will ever grow again in your desolate scarred expanse.
I'm putting up walls and defenses to keep them out.
This is where I will be waiting.

High upon a moonlit hill
We stand together, alone
We watch the people far below
Their hearts as cold as stone

Cold as ice, the night's wind howls
Her mournful song of death
Until the dawn the sun warmed earth
The dragon's fiery breath

We feel the light, the god-shed heat,
A song of mortal men
We hear the songs and feel the warmth
Until night falls again.

Welcome to the hall of mirrors
In this crazy house of pain
Things make look a bit distorted
You may start to feel insane
It would feel like hornets buzzing in your brain.

It might look a bit unusual
But nothing's as it seems
There is no such thing as truth here
Though you've felt it in your dreams
Just let the razors cut you at the seams.

Come join me in the madness
In the fairy tales and lies
But beware you'll never leave us
Though the fragile body dies
And in the cold dark ground it lies...