Dear someone
I hear that you have to be out there
Will you want to help me?
Will you try to fix me?
Will you hold my hand and rub my hair?

Dear someone
Don’t ruin me
Dear someone
No matter what I say
Don’t leave me be

Dear someone
If you’re out there
Please understand
That I’ve been lonely for so long
I don’t know what it means for someone to care

Dear someone
It takes a lot for me to give my trust
Dear someone
Don’t lose faith in me
I’ll keep believing in us

All the time people say
being alone and being lonely
are two different things
I used to believe
but not tonight

I'm too scared to try for love
too scared to look
I'm too scared to even give a chance
I can imagine myself happy
But I don't know if it's real

I thought I found it before
But now I know I was just hiding behind
What could never be
I'm terrified that I am too not right
to even find what I'm supposed to be looking for

I'm terrified that I'll never find someone
who will put up with my
back and forth mind

I'm not sorry we've been where we've been
I don't know what to call it
But it worked for me
We were young
things moved fast
But I had trust in you
and you had faith in me
You helped me learn about myself,
sometimes in ways mama would not approve of
But nevertheless, I would be different, if I never had you

I used to think that I was nothing without you
but now I know that all you do is bring me down
I though that all my world revolved around you
but I know now that you're what I need to learn to live without

This isn't love
I don't know what it is
The dark and twisty games
That we both know we both play
It's almost sick
That we keep on pretending
That this is how we both feel
What do we even know?
I am sick
Is this real?

I'd like to think that I'm not ruined forever
But I don't know if I believe anyways
Is there a way for things to be good and normal?
Those three words I'll forever be hesitant to say

This isn't love
I don't know what it is
Every night we say goodnight
Like we are all each other needs
We keep on pretending
That this is how we both feel
What do we even know?
About any of this
This can't be real

You have the greatest gift I can give
and That's quite a price for me to pay
just To learn that I do not love you
At all in that true love way

This isn't love
I don't know what it is
I thought I learned that love was
Pain and
Suffering
But maybe this isn't it
I haven't found it yet
Regardless,
I'll be forever scared to say it again
What do we even know?
I know now,
We're nothing

I don't even know how to explain it
It's like I'm sitting here
Watching what was once myself break down
There is no real smile
Cannot force out a tear
The most comfortable place
Is laying on the tile floor
Smoked three too many cigarettes
Without a single thing to eat
No matter how many times I lay down my head
I cannot seem to fall asleep
It would all be okay
If I just knew why
Why? Why do I feel like this?
I am alone.
It's happened before
No one knew how to help
I wish I knew how they could help
Even if I did they are not here
I am alone.
This place is new
Who to trust?
Who even would care?
It's not about them, it's not their fault
I am alone.
here
I am alone.
I just dream of being aware
of what I am feeling
At any given time
If only I could put my finger on it

I hate you
And
I love you
All the same
I laugh and I cry
Every time I hear your name
You complete me
But it is only because
You
Have every
Part of me

I don't know what to say
I know I love you
But for this I cry everyday
Do you understand,
Making me go on like this
is meaner that anything?
If you don't love me
Tell
Me

Don't lie
You know I hate it
When people lie
You let me sit
Here waiting
On and on
Before you know it
I'll be gone
So get ready

I don't know what to say
You know that I love you
Still you let me slip away
Do you understand,
That this is more than I
Can handle?
If you don't love
Me
Tell me

At first I thought that
Until you're ready I'll be
Waiting
But I swear to God if
You wait till I'm gone to
Tell me
That'll be too late
You had your chance
It'll be too late
Who am I kidding?

I know what to say
I'll keep telling you everyday
And listening to you say
"I love you too, but today I'm not ready"
And on that day
You stand outside my door and say
That "Today is the day"
I'll be yours
Forever

You can jump
and you can fly
or you can fall
fall down

I think I've fallen
Hit the ground

The only person I could ever want
to pick me up is who pushed me down

I wanna know
What it feels like
to have everyone you've ever wanted to love you
standing, waiting in a line
Cause I just stand here
In this same spot everyday
I think
I hope
I wish
I dream
I confide in you everything



Here



I am standing alone

What did you do?
You let me stay here
You watched me hit the ground