Its early october morning
its very quite here
and I am bored..
Watching the fireplace
and ruminate about
everything I guess...
Flames are dancing
lightly and playful
and its realy so cool.
The heat trys to rap
my body,wants to warm me
help me,save me.
Give me faith
to forget my past
and move on fast,
but I feel so cold inside
confused mind and
restless heart.
It was another restless night
in the mental hospital.
I am done...

When you meet an idiot
you understand at once
his stupid state of mind,
and nothing compares
to an idiot who always
think hes right.
When you begyn to discuss
with  simple words
it feels like you are
throwing a ball against the wall
and the ball returns to you
with no meaning or point of view.
Feel the anger growing,burning
in your chest,like a nightmare,
and the idiot dont care.
He keeps explaining to you
the same ****
and this is all you meet.
When you meet an idiot
just run away
dont look back
and dont regret.

I wish you were here
my best friend
with green eyes so clear.
I can swim in them
and feel the warmth again.
Tears of happiness
roll down my face
waves of emotions
like the blue,big ocean
fill my heart with desire
set me fri, get me higher
because our love is like fire.
Deep inside my heart
I am longing for your touch.
Gently hands,touches me softly
lips of temptation
what a beautiful creation.
of tenderness and happiness.
We are in love.
When I am closing my eyes
I can see the starts in your eyes
shines so bright,with endless light.
When I open my eyes
I can face it, it feels right
but I am alone in this moment
far away from you
and thats the truth.
I am longing for you
I wish you were here
with me ...

Searching for hope
to belive and be strong
to keep moving on and on
and see the things
I do wrong
like to see the full storm
in my heart,my broken soul
feel the pain
growing faster in my veins
accept the worst
and anyway keep the fight
for a better life.
Thoughts are running in my head
faster then the heartbeat
everything I dream about
disappears in the dark cloud
How can I belive
that anything can change?
Make a wish from
the bottom of my heart
with a new light
with a new start
I am searching all the time
sometimes I am up
sometimes I am down
waiting for a miracle to come...

I am sitting in this white room
watching the bright full moon
so far away and still so near
make me wish to disappear
from this world, my pain and fear.
No words can describe how I feel
only river of tears and emptiness

I am lost in the darkness
my heart is full of sadness
sitting in this white room
staring at the wall
no way to control
my mind is twisted

My heart is full of scars
like night sky with stars
my thoughts running fast
my soul is bleeding in the dark
No sign of hope
nothing is changing
only moonlight shines so bright
in this lonely,silent night