is this what it feels like
to love someone so much
your heart becomes so heavy
and your mind, so hazy

to have your emotions so confused
so tangled up in a mess
you’d wish you could comb through
all the distress

is this what love feels like
to have your world revolve around
one person, one special someone
does it make me mentally sound?

you make me so angry
my body sparks with rage
please help me,
lock me up in a cage

you make so sad
your words, they pierce
the soft layer on my heart
squeezing out drops of tears

but you also make me feel
nice and warm
and no matter what this is
i know i’ll always be wrong

my lips they burn
they burn for your tender kiss
that could land me up
in eternal bliss

my ears they crave
they crave to hear your song
the melodious comfort
i haven't heard in so long

my eyes they miss
they miss your face
the vision of you
i can never ever erase

my nose it itches
it itches for the scent on your skin
the sweet perfume
that remains lingering

my heart it yearns
it yearns for your softest touch
that's all that I ask for
it's really nothing much

my mind tells me to stop being such a fool
to erase you off completely
because all i am to you is a tool

I seem to find comfort
within these vertical surfaces
for I feel protected
from the minds of the capricious

People tell me it's not right
and try to knock the walls down
but I do not step out
Instead, I rebuild my walls once more

This obsession with being alone
threatens every aspect of my life
I start drifting away from
everything & everyone

This addiction takes my life away
piece by piece
gradually draining who I was
and who I want to be

help.
           help me.
                             help me get out of this rut.
I want to feel and live once more.

it feels as though I am
locked in this prison cell
a cell that blocks me
off from everyone else

this cell is not all that bad
for I feel safe here

and although it does not expose me
to sunshine and rainbows
it makes me feel
protected and warm

but sometimes
it gets a little lonely
and I'll scramble around
to look for the key

once I put my right leg out
I almost immediately pull it back in
for the terror outside makes me cringe within
and I lock myself up once more