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Its quite sad
How people make promises
About the future
Because they have no idea what happens in the future
People say things like
I will always love you
I will always be here for you
Things will get better
I promise
But its six months later
You don’t love me
No one is here
And if anything I’ve gotten worse.
**** me before I **** myself
They think I’m going to **** myself
Are you?
Maybe
You want me to be happy?
Put a gun to my head and pull the trigger.
Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs

White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
*Suicide
I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.
I am a ******
I murdered the girl i use to be
The one that smiled and laughed
I took those away
I don't deserve happiness
Not when all i can do is hurt
I don't deserve help
I can't help anyone
All i can do is make it worse
I murdered her
Her smile and laugh
I yanked them away
Now she just turns a cheek and cries herself to sleep
Trying to sooth her mind by inflicting her body pain
Maybe it will bring the girl with bright eyes and rosey  cheeks
And fill the void of the girl with dark eyes and pale skin and a void where her heart should be.
Maybe if i act like her she will come back.
But why would she want to come back to a life like this.
I certainly wouldn't
She wants to say i love you
But keeps it at goodnight
Because love would mean some falling
And she's afraid of heights
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