She cries
She is a broken person
She doesn't understand
That she is perfect
I want to fix her
I want to mend her broken heart
And lighten her dark mind
But how can i fix her.
If i can't even fix myself?
But she is broken and i will fix her
Even if i have to use my own broken pieces
Because she is perfect
She is beautiful
Even when she cries
And her broken mind
She is perfect

There are girls that i love trying to scrape their lives together and swollow their words to hide how bad they hurt
The girls who are drawn tight like an arrow ready to leave at a moment's notice so they don't get left again
The girls that got left behind so many times that they want to do the leaving this time
These girls have bruised hearts and dark minds
But i love them and i hope they stay because i Don't know what would happen if i got left.
I try to calm and sooth but it doesn't seem to work
But they have other people helping and they seem to help better
I'm not enough
So they get better people to help
At least their helped
I just hope they'll stay

I stare at you as you stare at her
And like a lamb off to slaughter I
Hand you my heart
That i've so carefully sewn and protected
And hope that like the pain my fears aren't really there

Its not real right?
Everyone says its not
The thoughts
Its all normal right?
Normal teenage girls
Think that they are not pretty
Or that their stupid
But this
This is not normal
Normal people are not awake at 12:23
Thinking of the bridge down the street
And what it might feel like to jump.
Normal teenagers experiment
With drugs and ***
I experiment
With fire and knives
Normal people hear someone
Call their name but there is no one
I hear people
Tell me to ****
And that i'm not good enough
This is not normal
But you can call it normal if you want
But just remember that when
You find me dangling with a chair tipped over at my feet and blood dripping to the floor
Just remember that
It's only normal.

Its not real right?
Everyone says its not
The thoughts
Its all normal right?
Normal teenage girls
Think that they are not pretty
Or that their stupid
But this
This is not normal
Normal people are not awake at 12:23
Thinking of the bridge down the street
And what it might feel like to jump.
Normal teenagers experiment
With drugs and ***
I experiment
With fire and knives
Normal people hear someone
Call their name but there is no one
I hear people
Tell me to ****
And that i'm not good enough
This is not normal
But you can call it normal if you want
But just remember that when
You find me dangling with a chair tipped over at my feet and blood dripping to the floor
Just remember that
It's only normal.

Someone has to remember
Remember us
How we use to be
You left
So i guess its up to me
But that's okay
I'll just sit here
Holding the broken pieces
Of what use to be
And hope the jagged edges
Don't cut to deep

She's proud of herself and she won't tell you why
It's been almost a week since she last even tried
But the voices won't stop and today they won
Will she go for the blade or end it all with a gun?

After hours of crying and arguing with herself
She gives in and opens the hidden box in her shelf
Overwhelmed with emotions she selects her blade
Oddly delighted with the choice that she's made

So once again she takes a razor to her vein
Without even flinching and feeling no pain
Well there is pain of course but it is mistaken  for praise
She is lacking in judgment because of the daze

She sits there emotionless as blood pours from her wrist
Giving in to that feeling she's so long resist
A smile crosses her face as it spills down her arm
She's caught in the evil we know as self harm