Prey upon my mind like it's your holy grail
Cause you understand that I'm one of a kind
Can never be replaced in your eyes
Always around in desperate times
Your personal counselor when you can't take the world
The shining light that lifts your world
Into the wonderland of dreams
Where things are so supreme-ly splendid
And you won't remember what you did
Where you can enjoy an endless bliss
Better than that first kiss
Or a granted wish that you've always wanted
I'm your guide to the slide of your lie of a life
That you can't seem to keep straight
Here to give you the words you need so that you can remain
Sane without gain of pain that's been trained
To maintain a stained identity strained into your mind
Smiling cause you can't gather the strength
Cause life seems to want to hurt you
And only you
But give everyone else a wonderful time...

This is my fantasy
I play the hero
You my damsel
I protect you
You comfort me
We love each other
*Until the end of time

I'm not in a Genesis crisis
But I am in somewhat of a bind
Stuck behind the kind shield of my mind
struggling to overcome the pain so that I can move forward in life
Can't you see I want to move on?
I want to get a new love life
But the strife that strikes me like a knife just stops me
I want to tell her what I really want to
But I'm stuck believing I'll never be up to standards too great
Why must I keep myself down
Like a clown inside an empty town
Why can't I just tell the truth
And say you're cute
Instead of being mute
Or trying to refute a past statement
Don't you care that I'm hurting?
Why am I so focused on a past
That never lasts
Unless it's fast in the mind
And tries to wrap itself around me like a cast
Why do I have to feel the constant torment
While you get to move on
As if nothing occurred
I get to be stuck in the Limbo of relationships
while you can casually move on to the next guy
Who will inevitably break you down to my level
I see your pain and take it as my own.
I'm just a sucker
I could never let you stay down on that level
I'd rather take your pain
So that you can gain a sane point of view
I'll sacrifice my own sanity
For the betterment of everyone else
Just so I can understand why I can't move on from that past
When I see you, I smile.
I think I finally understand
Why I could never stand
After that day
I lost a part of me
That was meant to be free to see the sea of belief
I lost that part of me to the chaos of love
Only because it wanted me to climb from darkness into light
So that I would never see this as a blight on life
Is it possible for me to tell you?
Now I'm stuck in the Limbo of doubt
But I have hope on my side
To hopefully provide me with
A new stride for my inner kind guy
I can move forward
Without fear of losing my life again

I have hit a point in my life where my poetry is no longer evolving
I write and I write
But it always ends up the same.
No new ideas
No new conception
Just the same poem over and over
It's like I've lost my personal muse to the world outside
And I can't find her anywhere
I've lost the spark that would help me come up with idea after idea
And I just decided that it was okay
Because I grew up from it
I've lost all the inspiration from my childhood
All the joy, pain, anger
All the emotions that I put into my work
Gone as if they never even existed
Why can't I evolve my work anymore
Why do I have to watch with envy
As others create wonderful masterpieces
While I recreate a
One hit wonder from long ago
That everyone has seen too many times
But decide to take pity and read just to satisfy me
What did I do to lose my love
For the art that I first gather interest in
The art that made me think
The art that helped me express myself
Why must I always have a block
Where I can never finish a new piece
Where I just stop and wait to
Finish it later
Knowing I'll never come back to it
How did I become this lost poet
Who can't create work
Is forced to read others works
Who must realize his limit has been reached a long time ago
How can I call myself a poet
When I can't even create a unique poem...