You poison my mind
Keep me up at night
I toss and turn
But when I switch off that light
You still drive me crazy
Even though you aren’t here
I reach, but can't feel you
Don't smell any beer
And then I roll over
And I am lying alone
You are worlds away
But you won’t call my phone
Can’t stand my thoughts of you
Each night I slumber
But it kills you too
Because I changed my number

You *******
You love me like
You're trapped you
can't get out and
tell me one more time
It won't make a difference
Biding time for nothing now
You'll never find your place
Wishing you could have my hand
Needs replaced, a chased embrace

Night riding through desert sands
Letting casualties bleed out
They know the way to better lands
Escape the ever spreading drought

“Go,” I said,
Like it was too late but
I knew that it was not.
Slow motion, under water,
A painful sleep
Disrupted by an apologetic embrace,
Watch me let go.
It is like warmth,
Impossible to escape
But I want to stay.
Lovers together, walking,
Talking, thinking…
The most peaceful thing
I have ever seen, I believe
The sun and the water…
Every noise, strengthens the bond.
My stomach in my throat,
Time given as a gift
Like it is solid and
I hate to admit it,
But you are the opposite of me,
I can’t stand you sometimes
And you talk in your sleep.

The evidence of a wretched lover
Presents itself as thus:
Crumpled tissues, dampened pillows,
Unruly blankets and sheets.
The wailing Venus is always blank,
With little affection to reap.
How could there be a joy in the world,
When all she does is weep?

The riffs I put on repeat
Never felt the same to him;
So difficult and different,
The cool, clear liquor in which I swim.
Always running, pages turning
Painful blows and silent doses,
Doesn't matter where we go
Can't fight this timely diagnosis.
The throes of passion pulled me under,
Loving waves and first afflictions,
Prescription for a vile infection
Of the heart’s disease, the soul’s addiction.

Feeling the cool breeze, I opened a window
Wearing nothing but a beater and
I lie upon my mattress thinking
"She's My Baby."
I am never more comfortable than now
When I smell the Earth and
She belongs to me.

The truth hurts, naturally,
I can break you down
To what you truly are,
Which isn’t much
And to be honest
It never really
Got that far.

Do not even bother—
Will not get me to give
Will not get me to soften the edge.
I do not do feeling
I do not call it love;
Do not even bother—
I am cold as frostbite
At the end of May
On sleepless nights
The Sandman’s Prey.

I’ll fall in love with every street corner,
I’ll fall madly in love with the sea,
And I’ll think of every grain of sand;
It’s where I need to be.
The only place that lets me breathe,
The only place for me.

Nothing is like this picture
It plays the same each time
White sheets brighter under sunlight
You lie on your side, there's nothing better
I stare into you to see if you look away
But you smile and blink your morning eyes
And this moment has to last forever
Because if it won't my heart will sever
Twisted sheets that measure pleasure
Keep me tangled up with you

Doldrums
Like patterns
They repeat
The buzzing
A fly
In the distance
Still loud
Though muffled
The same
In the end.

Take a gamble
Odds are you will
Have to lose
But you can choose
An offer you will not
Refuse she's waiting
To become your muse
A little bored but
More amused this hand's
A straight get
Too  confused to
Play your cards or
Discern the hues the
Black from white
You get abused
Wake up she's gone
Your money too and
All that's left an
Awful bruise.

Piano played softly
Sets the tone for a mood,
Looking out the window
Watching life roll by
All things surrendered
It is just me and you now.
Sooner or later, the truth will come out.
It will all come down to
A barrel in my mouth,
My foot on the edge
And in that moment,
One way or another
I will be enlightened.
For God and all things holy
Put your foot on the brake.
Over and out,
Houston, we have a problem.
Intricacies are tangling me,
I go blue in the face.
Discharge the patient,
Scalpel please
Hands where I can see them
Get down on your knees.
Watch them saunter away
This summer day
It's not what you woke up for.
Could’ve sworn there was sun,
Thought I remembered the heat
With my finger on the trigger
To you it tastes sweet.

I want you
To be my solution
You don't have a face but
You've got my resolution
And that's to take me home to
Take me any place to really
Anywhere at all and
Wrap my wounds in lace just
Take me home.

In dreams I am so far from here
This place it gets me low
The snow, I feel it coming
To drown me in my woe

An odd thing, the sunrise,
For the moon doesn’t sting my eyes.
But each night the moon I’m expecting,
Yet the sun’s always such a surprise.

An itch you cannot scratch,
Gnaws at your flesh
And tears your insides.
A parasite that lingers on
After any hope is gone
Every little exploit dies,
Breeds and lies,
Recaptivates you like a fool,
An everlasting bitter song
Which slays the need to carry on.

It seems old flames
Can be rekindled quite quickly,
Or perhaps never went out at all.
There is not much sense in extinguishing fire
When it is light you need to guide the way.
These peaks we climb,
Are not something we plan for.
But always we find a message
Hidden in adventures.
The long-windedness of days
Identical to the one before,
In the dark and confused,
Is expected and accepted, but wrong.
For we come out with the message,
Disembark with a lesson,
'Twas a candle that lit the way.
Seldom do we treasure it
For what it is worth.
When I emerged
And was equipped with light
I found myself asking
Why I left without it.

A day of triumph it is
When I walk away
And do not look back
…For a moment, at least.
It ceases appearing
To be a moment
Which I grip with my
Utmost strength and
Intertwine every hazy night
With my eager fingertips but
Alas, it falls away,
Always slipping out of my hold.
A piece of it I will forever cherish
As I softly smile and
My recollection breaks free
As if it were a slideshow;
In the background tender music plays.
Waves crash so far beyond me
I can only wonder how, why but
Instead I let the salt burn and
Am welcome home with a cheers,
Those eternal clinking glasses,
Broken bottles, deep sleep
Beginning at dawn when the music
Stops playing;
All to repeat as the fireflies glow and
Mosquitoes they sting and the itching’s so great
And maybe, a lover to
Drag up the stairs and
Unmake the bed with but
Alas, it falls away.

'Tis summer I yearn
When sun faithfully burns
'Tis green grass I covet
When shall winter turn?
The sun I see when light wakes morn
Eyes created, long lashes born
And meant to see all that I love
But when flakes fall my heart is torn.
The young, they cry, and waves, they peel
'Tis the water I need, the salt I feel
My true meaning and reason why
Some things a dream and others real.

Seems like blinking isn't worth it
One moment infant's next decline
Like sleep's cruel joke that only blurs it
Dreadful art's deranged design

This is not a test;
It’s a sideshow circus job
That pays in time.
If you didn’t know it,
Now you do,
That everything you have been through…
This is not a test;
It’s proof that you’re alive
And reason to bide your time.
But it’s running out,
You shouldn’t even bother,
Because life’s not on our side…
This is not a test.

Wishing for sleep it’s
Five AM and a train’s going by,
I can hear the tracks rumble,
Wide awake couldn’t tell you why just
Feel it’s only eight or nine.
The air is humid, the weather’s for wine
And I'm quite well, I'm feeling fine I'm
Always a fool for time.

Driving, driving
Down this secluded, dusty road,
It’s dark, the night
And I’m driving.
I’m alone, but I’m not lonely
Just have to get there,
Where ever I’m going,
But it’s this shadowy path,
This illusory feeling…
Unreal it is, and tells me so,
When I’ve truly stopped breathing
When I’ve accepted I’m drowning.
These trees, this road, they melt away,
Slowly I slip
Out of consciousness and I don't mind, feels
Right, feels meant to be.

Watching Richy
Sleep and snore and
Stretch his paws.
To him
Time isn’t passing.
This moment’s just lasting.
You get used to the hair.

Remember you I
Hate to admit I had you
You and your **** smile

Smile, eyes glitter,
Fingers grip,
In your eyes…
You don’t know.
In front of the world,
We have each other,
You keep me sane,
You keep me clean
In your eyes.
Can’t break it off,
Something intangible
And unique which
I am unfamiliar with,
In your eyes
It’s love.
Facing the ocean
Vulnerable front and back
You let go for once and
Swing in the breeze,
You sway like you’ve never
Opened your mind to a
World I can show you,
Lovely and brand new,
In your eyes.

I am trying to feel, you see
It is me, numb from the core but
Always wanting more yet
Obsessing
Over a chance to be free.
I feel nothing. I see nothing;
Dust in the wind
Never a worry
Of whether I’ve sinned and I’ve
Lost it all I’ve lost everything
And I’m standing here
In front of the ocean
Please, just let me fly it’s
Going, going, going, gone
The beat to the song,
The rhythm to the rhyme
One more time, teach me please
To get down on my knees so
You’ll listen when I say
I’ve lost everything.

Like a massacre
I watch them fall
One by one they die
Pale and lifeless bodies pile
I stand near hearing
"Wind the music, wind the music"
But it never gets any louder
And something tells me
Everything has changed
What has come to pass
Was never meant to last.

Nothing kind about a day like today,
The dismal thoughts match dismal gray.
Can only see the clouds this way
Clouds my mind, my world today.
The only light shone barely through
Nothing’s color, nothing moves.
Nothing takes the world’s hue,
It’ll never go from gray to blue
At least that’s how the dreary feel,
Like getting worse when nothing heals
And breeds this everlasting wheel
It's only false, it’s never real.
Yes, the funeral wheel it clouds my head,
Don’t feel alive, but not quite dead
Which keeps the lingering sadness fed
Just eats black, mind’s morbid bread.

Lost days
Thoughts, waves
Used things
Sweet, forever
Secret dreams,
Your acid face.
Light the match,
It never burns,
So instead we drown and
Play, watching, waiting
While they breathe lies,
It gets clearer.
This needs change and
We surrendered hazily;
Maybe it isn’t hopeless.

Hard to say how the years have passed
And you may wonder how I lingered
And where the past has been
These last two months.
Love has the wings of an eagle,
And at times it seems far away…
Remains present in the worst of frustrations,
Disappears on the brightest of days.
Can you tell me, my dear,
Where the sweet, sweet days went and
The long, warm nights and
Where that pleasure has been
These last two months.
You have got the face of an angel,
With the eyes I could not resist…
But I noticed so rarely these evenings,
The fixation that I used to miss.

Remember your eyes
Got caught in your smile and I
Still hate your tattoos

You make me forget
The great divide
With that ******* smile
From back last December
When for awhile
I needed it, needed this
Needed each forsaken kiss and
All the things I used to miss like
A trip long and winding
When the walls are breathing
The feelings we’re finding are
Right in the moment but
I look away.