My family
I no longer know
At self-destruction
I have become the pro
I am at the lowest of lows
I am the Farrow
The black crow
My phone does not ring with a hello
Never been invited to the summer chateau
That still exists from long ago
I have  no mansion in escrow
I do not suffer from tennis elbow  
The money I borrow
I owe
I am at my lowest of lows
I am alone
No one to call my own
So many I have known
But yet here I am alone
Many relationships I have blown
Weddings at the alter postponed
Maybe because of my tone
Which I do not condone
Now all I know
It is real
My fate
Is going to be to die
Alone

The city torn

The place they say is full of thugs
To me they are people that have had no hugs
And has been replaced with nothing but shrugs
And denied real love

In a country that was born on
Liberty and Justice for all
I have to wonder who is the all
Where is the liberty in it all  

In one city of many cities
Where your color
Is important to others
When we all should be standing as brothers

Where people have to act on their fears
Then die by the hand
Of the very people  
that should not be bringing on so many tears  

To think that life/a person
is something
that they cannot endure
Something so pure

So to the citizens of Baltimore
Fight your fight
Please do not give up don't let them  
see you in flight
Stand for what you know is right

Stay calm
Stay peaceful
And the out come will be right............

Do you think they woke one day
To decide to be that way
To feel the hate that they will feel everyday
To have their families feel betrayed
It's so much more
Then them liking the ballet
And them able to make a great looking bouquet
And them able to set a great buffet
And them having a roll in the hay
It's about two people sharing love
That was sent from above
And being committed
After all that was admitted
It's a shame they cannot feel acquitted
And they have to fight for it to be permitted
Why do they have to feel chastised
Just because there love does not comply
And no one will listen to their cries
And they have to watch their own demise
And they have to feel criminalized
Why do they have to be demoralized
Being gay
They want what everyone craves
They have to be brave
When they show their feelings
That for so long has been enslaved
Why would they not feel betrayed
So let me give you a clue
Being Gay
Is something you do not choose

You are born that way!.......................

I had to believe
Once I was  conceived
Once It was  time for me to leave
Born not to disbelieve
Certainly nothing yet to grieve
That would make me not believe
Not yet deceived
As I grew I believed
There was so much that I/we could achieve
If only we would believe
In
Our self  
His self
Her self
It's self
Myself
Self
Yes! That's all I had to do was believe
Now I look at what I have believed
I have to wonder if I have been deceived
Because there was so much that I believed
In
God
Faith
Love
Romance
Fame
Fortune
Normal things that I wanted to believe
That I never could achieve
And I believed
And I believed
And I believed
But just because I did not achieve
Does not mean that I will ever give up on what I

Believe

My best bud
It's sure not  a dud
Pop that top. up comes the suds
Drink of the hottest studs
On my mind all day while I work in the mud
Runs through my blood
Hate to say it,  in a flood
**** that bottle, hell I could drink a jug
Sorry ladies turn your head because I will chug
Afterwards come over here and I will give you a big *** hug
I will be acting like a big  lug
Had much rather have a bud then any kind of drug
Budweiser
Sure the hell makes me a lot nicer
Don't know about wiser ?

Since I am an old geyser LOL
Well, almost!!
Always have one in hand
What would I do if it was ever banned
all across this land
"Life"
Bud and a hot rock-n-roll band
Drinking it until I crash land
Then afterwards
Struggling to stand
My girl sure  the hell does not understand
My friends taking the witness stand
This life sure is grander with my
Budweiser
     !!

i check my pockets
i am out of dimes

may i borrow a dime
to buy more time

Is there a chance I could fit into your life
If not
Stab me with a knife
No reason to talk about it
Walk around it
Or think about it
Is there a chance
You see what I see
Feel what I feel
This is not lets make a deal
Ask
We could talk over a meal
Sounds Ideal
No baggage here
Nothing that needs to heal
If there is a chance
Don't be shy
Take a chance on me
Be all we can be
What would it take for you to agree
To take a chance on me
I can guarantee
There would be great *** with me
Kick the others to the curb
While using an action verb
I promise I want think your disturbed
Then you will see more then just a blur
When you take a chance on me
Your mind then will be clear
Then no reason to call anyone else dear
I will be the one that will  always appear
When you take a chance on me
I will be quick to fall to my knees
There will be more then wine and cheese
I know for a fact you will feel the breeze
and you will be appeased
with no disagrees
By taking a chance on me
After this do you agree
To take a chance on me
Yep, Your right, if you think this is about you and me
It is what it seems
An invitation to be with me
                !

Would really be nice if there was some
Abstaining !
Maybe some
Constraining !
If you only knew how
Draining!
I am really not
Attaining !
"Stop" with the
Explaining!
Sure the hell not
Entertaining!
Tired of it being so
Detaining!
Nothing
Gaining!
Not anything said that is
Containing!
Not worth all the
Campaigning!
So
Disclaiming!
All the
Proclaiming!
It's
Inflaming!
And all the
Blaming!
It continues
So shut the **** up
and stop THE
Complaining
         !!

09/11/2015

I write this respectfully,

As I have followed your (story) if you will
I  had to wonder where is the disconnect in
Church separated from State
I must say it was easy to detect
Your reason for refusing
Could it be? For what you think in the future what you
will collect
I have a feeling you knew what you were going to affect
I think you clearly have not read the Constitution because it clearly directs
That is something you may not reject
or disrespect
As I watched you with your so called fan mail, thinking how much could really be hate mail , at your kitchen table
I hope the letters were filled with words that would help you become more stable, not so unstable
Then maybe you can  stop some of the hatred that you have helped to enable
I was set back when I heard you are on your forth remarriage
From a lack of commitment?? Of your vows
They are not like throw away towels
Then when you were released from jail
Honey I think you forgot to wear your veil
Maybe then you would have been more hailed...(your thought)
Then when you and your political FRIENDS? ran upon the stage to eye of the tiger
The song is for a winner of a fight not for someone who caused a fight
out of sure spite
Then to hear you say all this was out of the highest respect to God
Ma'am in church and state there is no connect
Something I think you should have checked
With much respect

Sincerely,

Soon I will be laying in my grave
I am in my last days
Hell no, I am not being brave
I never picked up the bible
To learn how to behave
I have always been the Devils slave
Never corrected my bad ways
I paved
The highway to hell
"Well"
****, those lymph cells
Never heard those Sunday church bells
As I lay here and I dwell
The sight of Heaven long ago faded
My mind jaded
My eyes shaded
Made me easily persuaded
My life I traded
Hell, It's to late, It's over
Thank God, I am a little older
Death is a cumin
Drugs no more
Drinking no more
***** no more
**** no more
No more being a *****

To late to swallow

My pride

I am about to die

Barely made it to bed
in my drunken stupor
Close to being dead
**** don't know if I made it to the right homestead
Hell for all  I know it could have been someone's shed
With the bed spinning, "Lord a waterbed"??
The way I feel I think I have become the undead ..
In this drunken stupor
Passed out
Woke up
And the cutest little Redhead was laying next to me
Someone that I have wed ????
Maybe dreaming instead?
Might drink some more getting ready for what might be ahead..
No!! She turned over and looked at me and said "I thought you were Jed"
Oh ****!! I am dead !!!
I ain't Jed
I said
But you can stay right here next to me "In your bed"??
**** this girl was fine a purebred Redhead
No it could not be, a knock at the door
She looked over at me and said
"Honey" " I think it's Jed"
I jumped out of bed
grabbed my pants, shirt and boots
Naked as a J-Bird
Ran out the back door
Thinking
**** you Jed!!

I wanted that little Redhead
                !!