The night you walked out the door
And you decided you would no longer be my wife
And that you no longer wanted to be part of my life  
You should've  just stabbed me in the heart with a knife
"The Pain"

All the lonely nights
All the wishing you might
All the mornings that I woke and you were not beside me
All the times I dropped to my knees
Caused by  
"The Pain"

Just walking around in a daze
My days  
Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays  
Saturdays......
Nothing but a haze
"Time"
How unkind
"The Pain"

My heart
It cannot stand us being apart
It cannot find the energy for a fresh start
It cannot stop it's bleeding
It needs you needing
All it is feeling
Is
"The Pain"

During the nights
I dream that you come back
Crying out your name
Then I wake in the pitch black
To realize you are not back
"Panic attack"!!
"The Pain"

I step out into the rain
Because I have no more tears
Scream out your name
Hoping you will hear
And you will come back
And we forget the night you walked out the door
And you take away
"The Pain"
                                          !!







  
  


,

in his or her green and kaki army  fatigues
they fight a war
so where freedoms and democracy can prevail
with no red cape
no special powers
without a reflecting shield
they march into a battlefield
guns drawn
they put up the greatest fight
hiding their fear of flight
the whistle
the bullets sound
the direction
the way
the bullets paved their way
they knew exactly where to end
the god awful  sounds
as one by one they hit the ground
the hearts slow and struggle to beat
no loved ones by their side
our heroes die

Some say it's what is on the inside
Not what people see on the outside

But it's not the inside
It's what people see on the outside

It's not the inside
That attracts from the outside

It is the outside that attracts
To the inside

The outside
A cover for the inside

The inside
Never compares to the outside

The outside
Never seen as the inside

The inside
Is more then the outside

The outside
Hides the inside

The inside
Hardly seen on the outside

The inside
You should show from the outside

The outside self should be as well the inside self  
The inside self should be as well the outside self

Inside and outside just be your-self.

so many this world has stole
that are no longer whole  
putting first their own goals
not having any self-control
something I think the Devil has stole
one by one our souls
so many has forgotten his good grace
it's not happened at a slow pace
or in any particular place nor
to just one race
"A Disgrace"
that we have lost God's embrace
something you cannot replace
can you imagine
we allowed our souls
to be stolen by the fire  breathing dragon
God's heart now sagging
he is no longer hearing prayer
nothing more to share ?
why would you dare
then we wonder why our souls
our in despair
no longer aware
"Beware"
our souls
!!

as the sun goes down
as i roam the house, there is no one to be found
silent with no sound
i sat down, to unwound
there is no light, dark, as i look around
how profound
this house with no life abound
sad to say none inbound
or none that will come round
Silent nights
where did everyone go
all my family, friends, all the people I know
where did it go
the love that use to flow
where did they go  
the hearts that once glowed
Silent nights
all is calm
with so much peace
life's release
it's not for me, it's not in my heart
but still disconnected and still living apart
no mother of my child
no lives to share or to take part
Silent nights
lonely I might
but by knowing God
he keeps my life bright
i always sleep
in heavenly peace
in my
Silent nights
!!

When I was a teen
I ran into a pond hoping to
drown

When I was in my early teens
two men
nothing to say, but how mean
took something from me
youth and my virginity
not just once
what they did to me
without permission
i became their mission
keeping quiet and without
any admissions
about what they took from me
now older
i now have to deal
with the damage
they did mentally
i cut my wrist
not accidentally
took a hand full of pills
now thinking back
it gives me cold chills
what they took from me
no more
will i ever allow them
to try take my life
from me
no more hoping
to
drown
no more
will they take from me
     !!