Mark Tilford

Mark Tilford Mar 2016

Lost

Living my life and this is the cost
Being lost
Tell me please
Is it just me
In this state of feeling lost
Is this the way it should be
As every morning defrost
Feeling so lost
My eyes glossed
When did this happen to me ?
When my love I lost ?
Setting silent I often ponder and wander
Are they as lost as me ?
Are we, still what we both need ?
Why could it not be ?
Are they thinking of me ?
Are they feeling the same need ?
To see me ?
Lost
After not hearing their laughter
I listen and think I hear it in the rafters
While laying in bed thinking of our mornings after
I am
Lost
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Mark Tilford Mar 2016

Why tell ??

Keep it to yourself
Why can"t we keep it to ourself's
Why do we have to talk
Keep it to oneself
Why tell ??
We are male
We kiss and tell
After getting a piece of tale
Then
We put our ladies through hell
After we put them under our spell
Why tell???
All it leads to is a farewell
Then we have to fast talk
And
Make a hard sell
And all she can hear is alarm bells
Then we hear
"Go to hell"!!!
So why do we tell??
And put our ladies through so much hell
No wonder we can't find friends
Our mouths we need to cleanse
We need to ask for forgiveness for our sins
We are a hazard to ourself's
When we talk
So
Why tell ??
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Mark Tilford Mar 2016

My writes

Only my words
Am I a nerd ?
Only on the third word
A lot of the time they are so blurred
I just want them heard
But most often unheard
Some that are absolutely absurd
With no fancy catchwords
All of the time I rewrite and rewrite
and reword
Never hip and forward
Some that make no since
and that are slurred
All the above does not matter to me
You see these are my words
And I will never be
Deterred

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Mark Tilford Mar 2016

Memories

Thank God for our memories
Keeping everything the same
In a tight picture frame
Framing all the time that passes by
While it flies by
Storing everything until the day we die
Keeping all the promises we made
Every game we ever played
In the smaller grades
Nothing ever fades
Decade after decades
Memories
Some are good
Some are bad
Even sad
Not letting us forget the people that we had
and known
So many memories we have made while we have grown
They are yours and those you own
Memories you can recall when you are alone
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Mark Tilford Mar 2016

Hold Up!!!!!!

Sup??
Back up!!
Before I blow up!!
Yup!!
Breakup??
Nah!!
Lets make up !!
As long as you have grown up !!
Hold up!!
You want to start up!!
Lay up??
Give me a close up!!
Where will we wind up??
Let me clean up!!
Before we hook up!!
Once I start I want let up!!
I have been letting it pile up !!
It will be a big blow up!! :)
Let me get it lined up !!
It's tuned up !!
Hold UP!!
****!!
Slow up!!
It's up!!
Let me look up!!
It just blew up !!
Now??
Still want to break up??
After that !!
I figured you would
Hold Up!!
Yup!!
:) :) :) :) !!

Nothing like make up ***...LOL

Mark Tilford Mar 2016

My heart

So the Doc's all say
Soon it will just stop
and
I will drop

Feeling fear knowing that my death is near
They could not have made it anymore clear
That it will happen
I may not see the next year
So living to make this year
A great year
I will for sure persevere

My real fear
Is not having my family near

Every time the pain hits
I think " Well this is it"
This time it will quit

Some will question
Why are you writing this
Just trying to keep my wit

With the thoughts of my impending death
Knowing that I will soon take my last breath
Scares me to death

So they say only the good die young
My saving grace
And
My heart does embrace

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Mark Tilford Feb 2016

Over and Over

How many times has it been over
With no love held over
Yes, I know your on another lay over
You want be stopping over
and
you want be staying over
I am tired of being a pushover
So we want be talking it over
To decide if this time it's really over
Over and Over
If  It's over
How will I breath over and over
I will feel nothing if it's over
Does it not matter that I loved you over and over
and
I wanted to feel your love over and over

Over and Over
Risking it all  over and over
In this same place over and over
Running over and over
Returning over and over
Face to face over and over
Talking it over and over

I am sorry but this time
It's over
I am tired of
breaking each others heart
Over and Over
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