There has been no days that I have not been surprised, delighted, and unfortunately, disappointed by human beings. So I ask this question: is it due to age that selfishness surfaces at its peak or plateau, or is it an affliction that is borne from an innate personality trait. The inability to see beyond their minimal parameter and impose their will upon those who has a much wider horizon is perhaps one of the most difficult obstacle to overcome. Let's just say I wish to beat the mother-******* **** out of a couple who are about 12-years old in mental maturity, pour black tar on them and light a ******* match

Ah summer! How you touch me! Your morning dew that kisses each blade of grass, so brilliant, a blanket of diamonds as the sun begins its rise from the east.
And as that golden orb climbs to reach its peak midday, casting your warmth among the smiling and grateful faces of the daisies and pansies that dot the landscape. Chasing away the earthworms that sought the fresh air during the cooler hours of the morn.
And there is me.
Your sun burns the dark demons that haunt me before I slumber, and removes the curses from my dreams.
Your warmth enfolds me with the sensation of a true love's embrace.
Your brilliance shines light upon my mind's shaded path.
Your existence is what keeps me alive.
Shine on me.
Fill me enough to withstand the coming months of blacker days.
And keep your promise that you will come again and be my light.

More and more I see each day
Reflect upon all life and way
How dawn is beginning
Sundown the end
This is our life,
Believe me, my friend.

Ah! What has made me think this thought?
Clarity, meaning, truth I've sought
As all good things come to conclusion
Pragmatic reason, without confusion
I say goodbye to one I've known
With whom I spent my life and grown
Goodbye dear man, I've loved you too
But now I seek my life, what's true

Not feeling it right now
Like driving at night on a highway
Lights broken, totally black
Confidence, knowing…gone
Why? I was feeling so good!
So sure….perhaps not.
My mind, my enemy
Make it stop. These thoughts.
Sabotage!

Go away, I beg you.
The fear, the pain
Failure ensue
Not now, no rain
The promise of good
I’ll change just see
If only I would
I am, you see
Just someone who fears
That setting sun
Hold back my tears
As I come undone
Tragedy I own
Tis joy not mine
The sins I’ve sown
In death I shall find
The peace I seek
For I cannot live
In this world so bleak
My heart, I would give
To free the bond
For I, a slave
Until I’m gone
Never to brave

I am weak
Don’t mock
I tried, oh have I tried
Just leave me be
This world is hard

If it is important, one will find a way
If it is not, one will seek an excuse
Clarity is sobering
Especially when it is one's self that has been defined
The fear has yet to release its hold
Although I fight against its grip
And hope to one day take that deep breath of freedom
You have inspired that hope to heights never reached
The miracle is just beyond
With love, there is patience
And joy knowing that it is right there, so close
Lend your hand, for the length of its reach is more than mine
This I ask.  My attempt to find a way.  
You are important to me.
So very much.

My fingers raw from scrubbing pounds of clams, mussels, peeling prawns.
My back aches in preparation for a meal that I wish to share with you.
Christmas music in the background.
A cocktail in hand
Now I sit for a moment and wonder
Where are you?
I hope you smile
Know I think of you
Waiting for our time together
Sitting here. Lost in thought.
Lost in you.
Kiss my love