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Marinela Marie Nov 2012
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Ok...not so good today
Two steps forward
One step back
Sometimes three
And when I do
Alas, the difficulty
So what. Who cares?
Do you?
This is me. I don't care
At times I stumble
At times I detonate
At least I do....
And not just marinate
You judge me?
You're no one
That matters to me
Ahhhh! That is the key!
No care for you
I am to be free
No one shall tell
How I will rule
MY life, we'll have no duel
You live yours
And I'll live mine
We will see
Who, in the end, will shine
You cannot touch
What you have not known
Don't dare to know me
I will be alone
And love that I am
Strong without you
No more I shall I need
No more I shall rue
How I love that I have no more
The chains that had choked me
Restraint I abhor
Leave me! I scream
My heart full of glee
Begone! Stay away!
How I love to be me
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
One day, it was of one so bland
No note I took that was so grand
A lazy moment, I looked upon
Some random words, soon to be gone

Without thought I answered thee
And never thought that I would be
Captured by prose that came from you
I doubt, I knew you were not true

Yet with what you gave in return
A spark for what has yet to burn
Drawn like a moth upon a flame
In time lost focus within your game

And allowed your scrutiny
The secret buried deep in me
With test and trial you rose above
Yet with resistance I would not love

For feeling was not what I knew
And I could not allow from you
To gain the power and take from me
What held me up above the sea

Of misery, I have only known
No love, no joy, what has not grown
Yet with each word that came from you
The crack upon my wall broke through

The rush, emotion within a flash
That wondrous moment soon came a crash
Into my soul and shaken me
Stripped from my armor and set me free

With wonder I have walked anew
This path, in hand I take with you
But wait, this cannot be real
My heart, my soul, this love I feel

Each day, I wake hope to believe
That we’ve made stronger this wondrous weave
From chaos, turmoil to spirit free
Someone I thought I’d never be
Today I look back to when
And hope to see you once again
Short time has passed yet I do know
God no!!! Let not my doubt to grow!

Perhaps I have been so deceived
Autre persona has no reprieve!
Begone, leave me, I cannot bear
Too long your presence born its wear

Leave me, allow myself retreat
To where I do not claim defeat
This inner world no one I share
Where I am safe, my soul to bare

Forgive me, for I do not trust
What I thought love, perhaps just lust
How I wish that I am wrong
To be with one whom I so long

But fear has always taken hold
Allow me not to be so bold
I fail, I see, I cannot be
The girl I thought was true to me
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
I know I’ll never know your pain
My only wish that it shall wane
I long to see what’s in your eyes
The depth of soul that so arise
Your heart is strong as well your fire
You’ll never break nor bend, lest dire

There never will be someone like you
With valor, strength and all that’s true
The moment I have laid my eyes
On you there never once was lies
Only your care and understanding
You held me close tucked in your wing

I hope someday you’ll be aware
How precious all the things you share
I never shall forget your love
For you have brought me up above
The darkness that enveloped me
Opened my eyes so I can see

Yet here I sit, and think of you
How now I wish that I can do
What you have done to soothe my pain
To be your shelter in dark and rain
But I know this, you stand alone
That only you know must be done

So next to you, I always stand
I hope one day you’ll take my hand
To lend you warmth when you are cold
And give you love as I have told
In words and action that you will witness
My heart I give you and nothing less

What does that mean, my love for you?
Respect, admiration, and all I do
With you, I say, I found my way
To live each moment, each hour, each day
I tell you this, my strength, my champion
You’ll rise so high, when all is done

One day I hope you’ll take my hand
As we sit or walk, or as we stand
My heart will glow, no other I’ll see
For this is what was meant to be
To feel your smile, your eyes alight
To know that life shall finally be bright
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
Dear God why have you so given me
A mind that cannot stop to be
A looking glass to humankind
How I wish I’ve been born blind
So not to see the sins flow free
Why you have given them decree
To inflict pain and hide the love
That you all know there up above
So Is it really fair you do
That life what you show to be true?
Please tell me there is so much more
That is not hate, and all abhor?
Give me some hope that I may seek
That we are strength and not so weak
Smile upon those who have heart
I pray that you will never part
Your wisdom that I always crave
Loveth take over, with heart so brave
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
I wake each morning and hope one day
To receive an answer for what I pray
That all the souls that walk upon
This earth their pain will all be gone
My heart it breaks when I will see
That human kind shall never be
To care for good and truly mean
And try to change the pain I’ve seen
Perhaps just one can make a change
And spread the word widen the range
For those to make a difference, yes!
To turn around this worldwide mess
I will not stop believing in good
No matter evils, I’ve understood
If only you could stop and feel
Take a moment to see what’s real
Not the roles that we take upon
So brief, its stay and soon be gone
But in your heart see what is there
Is it full, or is it bare?
Take a breath, let air come in
And know that we all have been
Through pain and hate tis always there
Its up to us, to fight and share
The strength that we hold deep inside
And over come for what we’ve cried
Can you love, can you feel?
Not much it takes to make it real
So stop this hate, this jealous stride
And spread some joy, near and wide
Don’t stop and think if it is worth
The time you take to love this earth
It is our home, our only home
Where shall we go when it is gone?
So please I ask, just think today
A will exists, so there’s a way
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
I see this day to look upon
The ones once here, and now has gone
These words I write shall come from me
The hearts of others I cannot see
For men and women who fights a war
Your honorable spirit shall now be lore
I know I cannot ever grasp
The moment of that breath at last
My tears for you, always so real
Honor your service, with sincere zeal
I hope one day, that all war ends
And all your efforts shall make amends
Till then, dear soldier, I wish to thank
What you have done, shall I be frank?
I am but no one, just one who cares
Appreciate what you have shared
And lost your life to give to me
So that I live, and may be free

With all my heart, I thank you.
No words can express enough
Rest in peace
With love, respect, I honor you
Marinela Marie Nov 2012
I walked along this path through the trees
Lo and behold, I fell on my knees
For what do I see, but this vision of beauty
****, no, tis a hunk, boy was he a cutie
His muscles well oiled, as he flexed before me
My heart all a flutter, knew not how to be
So what do I do, shall I play the shy dame?
Or should I strip naked regardless of shame.
A moment had passed, I planned what to do
Despite the feeling that I knew I would rue
I walked to this god, who stood still as I watch
Looked into his eyes, as my hand grabbed his crotch
“how dare you ****** me! I’m a woman of grace!”
“you shall not demean me, no shame I will face!”
And so I turned to walk away
I would not let this man ever sway
To let me lose the virtue I gained
Despite my desire, oh how I have pained
I turned my head to take one more look
So many I’ve shunned, I could write a book
The doubt in my head took hold of me
And doubled my pace, so that I may be free

…..then I went to the 7 eleven to buy batteries
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