See me? See me wander? See me wander into my world?
No, dont see me. Dont see me wander. Dont see me wander into mt world
I dont want you there, or here, or anywhere near my world
You have brought nothing but unhappiness and gloomy skies
You have made my world your and destroyed it completely
But thats my fault. I let myself say "welcome"
I gave you the opportunity to enter my world. I said "yes"
I let my heart melt into your hands, I let my mind connect with yours
I let my body become one with you. I let my soul free
Now here i sit in a corner to wander off. Wandering off to nothing
Wandering off to the nothingness of who i am
The nothingness of who i was. Of who i am Of who i will become
All because you saw me wander. Wander off into my world
Into the mind of a wanderer

why is it that you make me think so much?
why do you make my emotions go wild?
why do you make me feel beautiful?
why?, why?, why?
what is it with your way of being?
what is it with your way of speaking?
why is it that you out of all people place a smile on my face?
why does it have to be you?
why can it be someone else?
why are you here?
why do you stand by me?
why?
why do you make me think so much?

Honestly i try
I try and try and try
But what am i?
A wall?
Another person in this world?
What do you think of me?
That im a child?
When i try to do something for myself
Its thrown in my face
Why is that?
Do i not matter?
Am i just like the others to you?
Yea... I think i am
Cause you surely dont care of what i feel
It doesnt matter to you if i cry
So my hate in my heart just grows
And you are the cause for that
So now you dont matter!
Now you are just another person!

You parents say that the world will always have something for you
Truth is you have to work for those somethings
Your family says they love you no matter what
Truth is you make one mistake and they haunt you with that for the rest of your life
Your friends say you look cute in that outfit and your hair looks great
Truth is your outfit look weird on you and your hair needs to be fixed
Your mind says you look fat and your the ugliest person ever
Truth is your not fat and your the most beautiful person on the face of the earth
Keep going strong my love
You are wonderful and if anyone was to see different then they have something against themselves
Keep your head up and keep looking forward
Life is how you think of yourself and how you make it
So think positive and make it worthwhile
Sincerely, truth

How can i say this?
I hate you
I hate the way you make me feel
I hate the feelings you give me
I hate the butterflies i get when your around
I hate the beating of my heart when you hold my hand
I hate how nervous i get when you kiss me
I hate that i love you
I hate that i hate that i love you
I don't know how to say this
You truly are the hate of my life

This comes from the depth of my heart
We promised we would always be together
So many memories made these years
And new ones keep coming
I love you
Yes i love you sweetie
You complete my world
You make my life
My heart beat sings your name
You are my perfect paradise

The darkness is over powering the light that is in the depth of my soul
I try pushing myself out but i can't seem to find my way through
I am stuck in this world that keeps my screams from being heard
I am lost in this place that is unknown
My mind wanders off to another place
As my body remains in this nothingness that runs through my brain
I am lost in this place i can't call home
In this room that only gets smaller everytme i take a breath
I am nothing in this world
But i am forever to live here until you save me from my own thoughts
Until you reach your hand out to me
Until i start to matter once again
I will forever be lost in the darkness that over powers the light that is in the depth of my soul