i ache because i have never felt your touch
but i worry if i felt it
i would ache even more

i had almost forgotten
what it felt like
to not want to die

so if i cannot thank you for anything else
at least let me thank you
for that.

the fireworks didn't only ignite the sky
they ignited my skin

or maybe that was your touch, i can't be sure.

i'm too tired
   to even think
i've burned all my memories of you
and i am now focusing on
       self-love.

you know,
they say oxygen
though vital to life
is ultimately its very destructor.

you see,
it burns us from the inside
out
we willingly take it in
let it slowly ravage our bodies
and seep its poison into our precious vessels
so when we leave this celestial orb
we're still left grasping
for one last breath.

so in a way,
i guess i could say i need you like i need oxygen.

i want to wrap you up and keep you in my pocket

                                 so that you always feel close to me

and so that i never have to deal with you again