I allowed myself to forget,
forget and numb out
to the pain I never thought would come this hard
it hides itself behind simple ideas,
waiting,
waiting for the right moment to come out
when its least expected.
At this point its much too late to stop it
everything comes back at once.
The thick humidity in the hot air,
the smell of the ocean everywhere you go,
the familiar hallways I walked each day.
so many familiar places,
so many familiar scents,
so many familiar faces,
all 2,000 miles away still in the Caribbean

When I think of all the things I want to say to you
I feel my breath stop
Too many hard to describe things come to mind,
Too many feelings impossible to put into words
...
I feel we've invented
Our own way of saying all those hard to describe things;
Just one touch and I already struggle to find words.

I'll try this time to not forget your eyes,
but time is slow and the distance is long.
I really will try to not forget
the color,
life,
and unspoken words hidden in your eyes.
I'll try and not forget the world you said was ours
in a poem much like this long ago.
but most importantly I'll try not to forget the love in your eyes
that I hope is reflected in mine too.

You brought traces of everyone with you
the afternoons spent with everyone in school
the afternoons spent in the heat walking through the streets,
everyone laughing,
everyone smiling,
everyone together,
but now everyone is dispersed
I know only of a few, not all
at least with you, you brought stories of home
stories I should have been a part of
stories I'll never be a part of again.

I feel everything coming down
in the dead of night
"five months" my head says
five months has never felt so long
for five months I haven't held your hand
for five months I haven't felt your lips agains mine
but for one night at least
we can forget this horrible curse the universe has placed on us,
Distance.

My body and mind go into turmoil
at the thought of meeting you again
.....
for months my most consistent thought
has been being with you,
beside you,
feeling the warmth of you presence
and now that the days are slowly approaching
I don't know what to do.

I feel ecstatic!
my heart and mind race
at the thought of seeing you again.

I am happy to announce that the countdown
that began when we first parted five months ago
now fits in the palms of my hands.

I can almost feel your warm aura next to mine.
Really nothing can surpass this happiness I feel~