I always healed myself wrong,
You were never the place I belong.
Most days I just want to survive,
I look for something to keep me alive.
I dated people I don't even love,
I spent nights praying for someone above.
I kissed people but never let them in,
I made them love me, but never show them my within.
I turned myself cruel and ripped my own heart.
They think they know me, but I'm an abstract piece of art.
I look in the mirror and I don't recognize what I see,
How can this be?

I was a storm and now I am a dead sea.
I was fire and now I am nothing but dead ashes.
Sometimes good people do bad things.
I always healed wrong
But for how long will this prolong?

You can't judge someone for how they choose to survive.
Some people will sit completly numb in the rain for hours.
Some people will try to **** the sadness away,
They will meet a stranger and they won't even bother to know their last name.
Some people will date people they don't love,
Hoping that that will make them less lonely.
Some people will become cruel and you will wonder why are they like that.
Some people will cry their lungs out in the silence of the night.
Some people will prefer to be alone, and you will wonder why is that.
Some people will drink until they drown their thoughts.
Some people will do anything to survive.
How can you blame someone for living?
No one can judge you for the way you chose to heal.

I'm a girl untouched.
Many have passed through my body,
But no one has ever passed through my soul.
She is a girl untouched.
He may kiss her lips and hold her close
But he's not the one that she chose.
She may say she's fine and laugh all the time,
He will never know her internal grime.
She may say "I love you" and he may believe
But she knows she not meant it and she's just naive.
Does he know when he look you in the eyes?
Does he know every one of your disguises?
Does he search for the part of you that dies
Every time you lie awake hoping for better skies?
Because only a fool can't see everytime that you lie
When he asks "are you okay?", tell me, do you deny?
We all know that the nights were made to cry,
But you always seem so strong, so darling tell me why.

You are mine.
And I am yours.
Our minds belong to each other.
Our bodies are far apart.
We will never possess one another.
But you will always have my heart.

I no longer feel that pain
That corrupts me through my vein.
I no longer crave your touch,
I don't think in you that much.
I no longer read your mind,
I'm not that girl who was so kind.
I can't remember the color of your eyes
And I can't love any more lies.
I always kept you on a cage
But it's time to turn the page.
I can't love you no more...
So, leave my mind
and shut the door.

I still can't say goodbye
But I have all life to try.
There are so many words unsaid,
They will somehow disappear.
I will not hate you, but instead
I will always love you, dear.

I wanna be like the autumn,
I wanna be like a tree.
I want my leafs to fall
So that new ones can be born.
I wanna be like an old movie
That you remember once in a while.
I wanna be an old memory
That keeps making you smile.
I wanna be the stories that are still left to tell.
I wanna be the absent rain that you are still able to smell.
I wanna be the smoke that slowly drifts away .
I wanna be like the sun that disappears at the end of the day.
I wanna be the sunset soon forgotten,
I don't want to be gotten.
Because, darling, I can't love you anymore,
You put my mind in a state of war.
So please, please, just go away,
Because I need to move on and I just can't make you stay.
Be the sunset soon forgotten and make your own way
Because the clouds are coming to make the blue sky return to gray.

Come, my love,
Destroy me with your fire.
Put your arms around me
and break me.
I've known since the beggining
that you're that kind of girl that leaves desire.

Oh, but I want you...
but you belong to yourself.
I try to offer you the world
but I forget that you have your own.
I try to offer you my words
but you already know how to speak.
I ask you not to leave
but you belong to the world.
I tell you that I love you
and you say you have your own love.
So, darling
please tell me I'll be okay
because you own me in every possible way.