"It's now that I've found something astonishing,
That I'll have to tarnish it,
Eradicate, obliterate, and terminate it.

But, only after we've defiled their hearts,
And slandered their souls,
And destroyed their every waking moment of hope.

Because this is what we crave for, what our human design lust, and, aches for."

This is what he told me,
As he mauled out my own,

And I cried out in torment,
In the rummage of my broken hopes.

You have me twisted in your mirage of happy endings and love struck thoughts,
In this desert of woes and ruts.

The dust cradles my lips and the sun burns my eyes,
And the dunes devour the lies I tell myself at night when I cry.

I say I'm happy through my teeth,
Because even I don't believe me.

At night the stars are scattered like my brain patterns when I try to put us together.

Maybe it was too soon.
And maybe we moved too fast.
Maybe we hadn't forgotten our pasts,
and we tried to make ourselves forget our lasts.

Or maybe it's the distance ******* with my head, because my lips feel dead,
And my blood was red before it hit the surface,
When I used the blade to try and forget my pain.

In a world of lavish dialect
Filled with idiosyncrasy and conspiracy
Delicately I make my own beat
My eyes blue and amite

Laughing with my medal of valor
Painting what your eyes can't see
And writing words your mind will never read
My artful life.

Keep your hands behind your back
And keep your lies bound tight..
Before you release me...into them
Releasing me into twisted arms and crooked intentions
Of my souls redemption
Your snide words pour slowly out of your yet divine eyes
You're merciless and ruthless
Ferocious, and devious
Cut me in half; and paint me black
To match your heart and your soul
Dead and lifeless
Perished and Cold

Ana is my friend,
when she whisper I'm thin.

She clings onto me, she's everywhere I go
I've tried to escape, but she won't let me go.

I smile when I see my bones.
And I cry when I see my soul

And my spine hits the back of my chair when I sit
And I feel accomplished, at my stomachs empty pit

Ana says she cares
She says she'll help me, she says she help me see
Help me see that I don't need food
So I can be content with myself ****

But when I don't listen to her she gets mad
She tells me I'm fat and sends chills of hatred down my back

She's my demon, and she wont stop possessing me, until I die, nothing left but skin and bones.

Why I don't eat.
Mostly because of you.
Also because I want to be thin.
Only because you ruined my once well image.
My own disgust weighs me down.
It's fat and hatred stuck to my bones.

So watch me take my diet pills.
And watch me get high off of my own sins.
And when my face hits that "porcelain throne"
I regurgitate my memories of you.

I wash my hands till your smell no longer clings to me
And I keep my head held high to redeem everything you took from me
And I hum MY anthem
Of sweet revenge
To avenge what I couldn't see

My thumbs twiddle and body fidgets
As a glare at my newly twisted image
My bones stick out, and my mouth remembers no taste
You did this to me, you made me this way

It's not that my heart has died, it's just learned not to cry
And it's not that I don't miss you
It's that you never cared, and you'd never dare to