Standing under a night sky
Straining my eyes to find Orion's belt
What will tomorrow do to us?
Our pasts become loving memories
And I can't remember the last time I was embraced
A world where he exists is a world where I erased him
I'm swimming in a familiar body of water
But keep drowning every few hours
My friends and I love the open sky
Yet can't stay in the light for too long
Waiting for the sun to touch the mountains
And come out out to play
There's nothing quite like the summer heat
With my beloved and future mystery

I've entranced myself into an eternal dance where the truth glides across my skin and I always stare into the eyes of my lie.

At the last, tenderly,
From the walls of the powerful, fortress’d house,
From the clasp of the knitted locks—from the keep of the well-closed doors,
Let me be wafted.

Let me glide noiselessly forth;
With the key of softness unlock the locks—with a whisper
Set ope the doors, O soul!

Tenderly! be not impatient!
(Strong is your hold, O mortal flesh!
Strong is your hold, O love!)

The soft pink light bounces off the walls only to settle so subtly onto the white and pristine sheets. The light dances on my smooth skin, but unlike the sun I do not feel warm. I am alone wrapped in strawberry fantasies. The only thing close to radiance during the day is my computer screen accompanied by blankets. Awaiting for daylight once again I huddle in the room where the only thing familiar is the adventure tales and action thrillers. They sit on shelves waiting to be remembered, longing to feel that careful touch. I am a recluse with no motivation to be interacting with my generation. If you are interested, curious on what goes on in my mind do not shy away! I haven't forgotten how to socialize, but choose not to waste anymore time on things that I don't like. Take a step and I will take a step too. Just because I like being alone doesn't mean I was always lonely.

There were nights the breeze would kiss my cheeks
The sky would blanket me in darkness
I was surrounded by giggling companions
Or sometimes looming street lights
I didn't understand fear
Never gave a second thought to my actions
Bruises and blood were paid as prices
But only on the surface
What I lost after those countless nights
Was more than skin and friends
I doused myself in lies and misconceptions
Thinking if I forgot everything, things would be perfect
Nothing lasts when the labor includes losing yourself
I couldn't recognize my own reflection when morning came
I've forever forgotten bliss after those stars left me
And all I had was a cloudy sky, hazy memories
There came a day when I woke up
Realized I couldn't remember why I had done what I done
Something was missing from those reckless nights
And that was my own ability to distinguish from
Like and love