i can't write on you
because that demands something
besides apathy

i am too tired to
put any effort into
whatever this was

telling you goodbye
is still more effort i can
throw your way right now

Cigarettes are expensive
but I need a reason
to stand outside of parties
and avoid
interaction.

take my hands
(don't forget
to cut at the
joint)
i don't need them anymore
crash my car
on the interstate
flip over
fragments of
rose blood
clots
and tireless
time bombs

take my hands
and cut at the joint

tie smoke in
knots
and watch the
stars
fall faster
than
anyone will
ever
fall for

you

I keep dreaming
of crushing
concrete columns
and
wondering
if I'll
ever
feel like
I'm not alone?

i miss cherry blossoms
and that time of the year
where life seems
to sprout from my ears
i miss waves

and most of all
i miss you

Crawl through clouds
watching
carbon carrier
sheep
Stumble through
designated dreams
timely turns
at at least
45 degrees

thick smoke
stacked in rows
behind
white fenced faces
and feigned
spaces
There are
two heads here
in four odd places

Cover cracks
with coils
heart tangled
royals

Adopt my heart
Its been
passed
kicked around
has over 300 likes
Heart felt messages
about giving it
a forever home
a place to love
to be loved
a place safe
And dry
Let me be
the "crazy people lady"
you never used

Your hands
    cleaner
than my
sunday
shirt
and
I've collected
quite a bit
of dirt

Sink teeth
like ships         in my hands
                             one moment
                                with you
                                   d r i p s
              through conscious
coughs and
carefully
                climbing
                carbon

i want you
to drink me
   like smoke
      ribbons
through
your straw
in my neck

won't you
carry me
until you
forget?