there's a difference between fire and water
that makes you think again about this circle of life
there's always be the cold situation
then hot
and there's up then down
sunset melted into sunrise
and it's always rolling like that
you found a lover and a liar
which you couldn't see the difference
sometimes your lover turned into your liar
and your liar became an angel of nirvana
you couldn't deny nirvana's angel
one day when the night is falling down
darkness is your only friend
you'll see your lover blooms
petal by petal
if you see the one who's falling
that's your liar
because liar couldn't stay with you
when you're in your dark

(a.l)

It’s night here…
Not actually night
I can’t see
But i’m not blind
I just can’t see the world
World full of drama, lies, tears, and sadness
I don’t know you feel the same or not
But my world is just like that
All i want is to disappear
I don’t care about my family or friends
They’re fake

It’s black
Only black that i can see
Nothing’s colorful
So i took cigarette
I smoke
But it’s not enough…
I eat
Not food
Drugs
I drink
Not water
Alcohol
I go to school
Just pretend
Who cares?
Teachers? Friends? Who? Nobody

I locked myself in my room
It’s 3 AM here
Everyone’s asleep
So no one would notice
Well, if they’re awake they wouldn’t notice anyway
So i took cutter
Not for paper
To cut
Cut myself
Until i bleed

I woke up…
Whole friends, family, teachers are there
I thought i was die
No
I wish i was die
They asked what happened last night?
I said i accidentally cut myself
I know they don’t care
And never will

I was in the dark room when they said i had to leave
I was curious what they really want from me
They took my cigarette and slammed me
They asked me few questions
Pushing me to answer it
I was afraid
I had no courage to answer it
What did you do
They asked
Nothing
I said
What did you do to her
They asked again
Nothing much
I said
They looked mad
I'm in love with her, is that even a sin?
I asked
Have you ever been in love? It's the most beautiful and worst thing in this world. You couldn't choose the person, your fate did. You won't know whether she's pretty or not, smart or dumb, almost perfect or not perfect at all. Your eyes will be blind. It's time for your heart to see the world while your eyes take a rest.
I explained
////silent////
They left me alone
And came back with a gun

(a.l)

pieces of pain
fly into the crescent moon
we walk through the falling snow
storm and broken road
are we alive or just pretending?
wisdom of the nirvana
tell the mysterious diety
yellow grass and smoked old man
strong promises people made
promise it won't be breaking
seeking the shadow of your savior
survive the long cold night
with an eclipse
torn fall between us
pale lips with a cigarette
living our future in a ***** promise
lead me, surviver
to the end of this tunnel
standing in the rain to see the lights of the buildings
galaxy and hidden planet
walk to the flower shop
rose or jasmine
red with madness
or white with sadness
painting your soul with blood

(a.l)