i remember how you bought me a cake,
i shook my head to wake up
i thought it was just a beautiful dream i was still in
but he was there for me,
with all sixteen candles on my cake
it said
"happy birthday"
it was the sweet sixteen like i always wanted

he was there right in from of my eyes,
he was dancing with the lady of his choice,
he was happy,
dancing all night long made him look sweaty and ******,
i saw him how he glanced at her,
he was in his own world,
i could not speak to him
i wanted to say-
"please please listen to me, all i want is you and you"
i saw him being ecstatic
i stood there by the corner, looked at him
being all ALONE AND ALONE
just by myself!

words feel so powerful
not even the sentence
i am gonna hang myself with a rope
i am gonna die somewhere soon
everyone took my words for granted and here i am
again!
i am sorry is what i am left with

this is moreover like feeling
i dont want to talk to anyone
i dont want to be miss shenanigan
i have done alot of mess while i was trying to help you
i am sorry
i will miss you
i didnt want to hurt your feelings but
now all i can say is
hurt was once i did to someone
really that close to me

have so many people by my side
but does anyone really care?
its all about hatred
i am sorry for the messes 've done
i am gonna die soon