wake up in the morning sighing
today i'll have a good day
today i'm gonna be happy
but the thing i can't get across
is the sighing.
i don't say it like i really want it
even though i really do
being sad 24/7 is starting to take
a toll on my body.
and you!
you!
you!
you!
why do i ******* miss you so much
when all you did
was **** me and hurt me
when all you did was say you love me
just to touch me
and why the hell
did i fall for that?
i still don't know the answer.
you throw our glass in the air
and it smashes on the floor
and you think you can just take
tape and make it okay again
by saying how good you'll make me feel
or how dumb you are for
letting me go.
why are you realizing this now?
if you really felt this way,
you would've confronted me
with your worries so we can work them out together
as a **** couple
but instead you decided
that one mistake and i was done for
even though i forgave you
so many times
i gave you so many ******* chances
way too many
i only heard one small thank you
that probably wasn't even sincere.
so i'm done asking nicely.
get the **** out of my head.
stop trying to come back
because right now
i am too weak to push you away
i loved our memories
i loved your lies
this sickening disease is
killing
me.