There are people who tend to either ramble
or stay silent when they’re nervous.
I am unfortunately one of those people
who just won’t shut up when nervous.
Nervous rambling makes me say stupid things
like the sky is red or my shoes are purple
when the sky is clearly blue and my shoes are
clearly black. I might have a conversation with someone
about sports and suddenly say, “You should totally
play this video game.” There are days where I’ll put
on a mask and pretend that I have confidence.
One of those days where I felt like I took
a few too many shots of something strong and
gain the false confidence of talking to that girl
that I’ve been staring at for the past ten minutes.
While I’m walking towards this girl, my mind
screams for me to stop. My body won’t stop.
While I’m talking to her, I tell myself to shut up.
Instead of shutting up, I talk out of my *** and
recite a poem about how I can’t shut up.