You become so used to living your life
Around all the same promises
And all the same lies
You forget how to breathe
You forget how to start over
You forget yourself
Like you've been spilt into two
Darling,
You were whole all along
You don't need to be put back together
You just need to
Remember to breathe
Come on now,
Deep breath in.

your demeanor ever darkening
raining misery with every step you take
a thundercloud eclipsing the sky
pillaging oxygen from the trees,
the breath away from all forms of life
i can’t breathe, i can’t breathe
inexplicably i’m being pulled closer
with every step i try backing away
you’re a magnet, a black hole
i fear i can never escape you
i need an escape, i need an escape

i tried to save you
but you wouldn’t hear a word
you closed your eyes
sewed them tight
you refused to see the beauty in this world
(so i saved myself)

you never know
what it is that you crave
what it is that you
desire
even when it’s staring you down
your blue eyes watering under its gaze
you could have anyone, anything you
desire
but that just makes it so much harder
you’ve always got what you wanted
which takes away from the beauty of
desire
it all starts to lose meaning
when there’s too much of a good thing
and not enough yearning, not enough
desire.

everything is hazy
there are blinds over my eyelids
consciousness is fleeting
i thought everything would be alright
but i am never right
about these kind of things
i am never right at all
catch me
catch me
when i
f
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you are the one who holds me up
on nights like these.

everywhere i turn you haunt me
you follow me to no end,
from which there is no escape.
how can there be closure?
my heart i would gladly give to another
but you won’t return it to me
the gift i gave you once
ever unappreciated
you were always so undeserving
the reason for your absence
i have come to understand
you’re a time bomb, ticking
an enemy ship, sinking
potential without ambition
is me without my heart.
so please,
give it back to me now.
you have no use for it,
anyways,
and i must save myself.

push me around
just to pick me up again
whenever you want me
at your disposal
off of the cold hard ground
oh, you make me feel so *****
is that how i look to you?
use me as you please
we are all disposable
is this what i asked for?
do you realize,
i can still feel emotion?
i still crave more.

a constant denial of everything that matters
has left me shooting blanks
a silence canvases my life, so full of sound
at least it used to be
now i am left here at peace with myself,
with my eternal surroundings
no need to fight, no begging to hide
i expose myself to the elements
a placid calm, drifting in sunlight
poised in waves, serene moonlight
tranquil whispers in my ears
is it you who calls to me so?
i would run to you,
but i would rather float.
and so i float.
a silence once so deafening,
is soothing.
i can not recall a time so simple.
i do not ignore the complications,
they simply do not matter,
when you are near.