i feel a warmth,
a light radiating from the unknown
i know not where it comes from
what it means, or what its message is
yet it comforts me.
i feel, for the first time,
that everything is going to be alright
no knowing how,
only what is, and what will be.
i embrace the warmth,
let it melt away the past
the pain slowly flows away
emanating waves of facility
i am the picture of calm
of happiness and hope.
i am alive.

i don’t want to be like this forever
a constant game of hide and seek
both hiding ourselves from each other
and eternally seeking an embrace
making mistakes and making up
making believe and making love
i don’t want what could have been
i can’t live with ‘what ifs’
i can’t bear a life without your voice
your eyes that expose the truth
your touch that taught me passion
your future without me in it
i can live without you, if i have to
but i can’t live with myself if i let this die
years later hearing your boundless words
knowing i didn’t give my absolute all
to have you by my side, forever
i won’t live a life of ‘what ifs’

i am frozen
my extremities are numb
the world passes slowly by
but i’m lost in this moment with you
your touch chills
yet warms me to the depths
further seeking never more
for each day spent, i am renewed
cold and lost
until i heard your voice
it seared through every pain
and i knew then, you felt it too
loss of words
seeking breath to speak
to share with you every ounce of joy
only knowing
only saying
only
waiting for the day we say “i do”.

Happiness, it’s a strange concept
a transparent dream at it’s best.
So much potential left untapped
my hearts been ripped out of my chest.

Trust, now I’ll always be jaded
easily gained, so quickly lost.
I’ll beg my feelings to be faded
you’ve thrown me away, simply tossed.

Choking on memories of you
drowning in the dream of your eyes.
To believe I thought I knew you
all of it lies, say our goodbyes.

Shattered my heart and trampled the pieces,
my breathing decreases.