Listen!
I want to listen to more
Music
Friends
Family
Mentors
Perhaps most importantly
I want to listen to myself more
I guess I'm worth something too?

When your jaw hurts
Because your mouth aches
Because you can’t quit faking
The smile that runs permanently across your face
The facade isn’t going to last forever you know
The stress insists
And you try so hard to resist

Waiting impaitently for my thoughts to slow down
My hands and feet are shaking uncontrollably
Sweat is dripping from my face
As I lay down in an awkward position
With no energy to save my dignity
I fall asleep
Into more thoughtless spirals
Into a world filled with the blissfully naive
Unconsciously I'm humming
In my sleep
My world has shut down
And the world on the other side of the veil
The one we call our eyes
Is coming down upon me
There's no stopping it
I can't fight
I wish I could just
Stay asleep

It's okay
It's alright
We all fall asleep
Eventually
At some point
Either day or
Night

I'm a writer
I'm a reader
And above all I'm a dreamer

I realize that usually what I'm reading is purely fiction
That doesn't mean I can't install hope into the characters
That bounce off the pages and flash into my eager eyes

It matters not what I'm writing
As long as hope is contained within the ink

I look into this world
And not enough people have their noses burried into books
I strive to immerse myself into the world
It doesn't matter if it's in a notebook or book
I'm just going to keep on dreaming

I was looking back at my journals
And all the writing on the pages were smeared
Not from the ink that was never supposed to disappear
But from all my tears
That had supposedly fallen down my cheeks
Splashing carelessly onto the paper
Smearing emotions and complaints and all the hope
That I had acquired over the past year