It's something just boiling inside me but it something that's keeping my sanity. It's something that leaves me nervous but also keeps me excited. It's the only shot I have but also the only risk I can take. It's your heart and it can be pampered just as easily as it can be crushed. I can make your tears appear just as easily as I can make you blush. I can make you laugh just as easy as I can make you upset. And I can easily make you remember just as easily as you forget. The word is love and It's a tough subject but it's a war I would rather accept thatn a war with the word regret. Second thoughts easily dismember my train of thought and your smile leaves my throat in a clotted knot. I tell myself to not hold back but all I feel is restraint and I tell myself it could go better but I would leave that up to your decision that is made.

Sitting alone in the dark room
Only the ceiling resembles skies of gloom
Which symbolizes doom and boom
Echoes through the waves of the silent beat
My heart runs so cold on this night that is struggles to find heat
Connection is lost
Emotions don't make a sound
My tears freeze past the point of frost
The voice in my mind wakes all near as it screams aloud
The ones I love hear a painful noise
The ones I hate cheer cause it's always been their choice

The sun cracks the atmosphere with the utmost roar which makes you ask yourself whats in store for today being that way brings less decay and obstacles along the way in a new day. Beams of light going through the shades as your favorite dream fades and you're left with emblematic scenarios and no choice but to take care of those. In everyday there are the highest and lowest points but those are the moments that are cherished most. Morning is time to start the day and prepare for your destiny and making the best of it is important because 24 hours isn't an eternity

My friends, my inspiration.
Our endeavors, our continuation.
His smiles, her laugh.
Her attitude, his savvyness.
My equal, their reflection.
Of all in the world, I'm their selection.
My friends, until the end.
The poem is mistitled again...
Family is the proper word in my mind.
They show me that i'm valued so they're one of a kind.
The ones I love, the ones I trust.
My friends are there for the love and lust.

The ground is my friend
Which marks today as my end
Looking down feels like home
Everyone knows i'm alone
Neck no longer strain from the pain
Because i prefer fear over gain
Cautiousness is a thing of the past
Meanwhile my feet are a giant ****
Clothes consume the smell of failure
And my long journeys consist of torture
Money and luxuries are no longer consumable preferences
Because a man with no morals like me has nothing to reference

I wanna take you there. Where there isn't a care in the real world  and my dream girl becomes a wish come true because we're under a sky full of blue. When beside an ocean, the chill breeze touches our toes and the waves repeat their highs and lows. I look at you and visualize your beautiful eyes I see everything but lies and compromise. Along the shore we trot, our eyes being exposed to alot of thoughts and speculate what are true purpose is of being here, to one day be cleared or to display guidance to our peers. We leave this exotic escape only learning and yearning to feel that euphoric paradise of a landscape

Looking in the sky in reflection, only to see recolection of my mistakes as a collection. Always trying to be perfect but being flawed leaves only the option to learn. Constantly looking in her direction waiting for her decision, when you realize there is no such thing as emotional precision. Whatever goes, goes and whatever her reaction is whatever shows