Pain
what a famous word.
We all use it as it belongd to us, but
What does it really mean?

You lost me and
I lost you.
And all that is left are memories.
Bad and good.

Now that I know that I never stopped,
you have found your own happiness
and although I want to try...
I know it is just...

I cling to hope to survive,
and it hurts, but this pain
keeps me alive, it keeps us alive.

I know now, that
for as long as it hurts
this love, it's still real.

Love is a battle
that will test you;
test how much can your heart resist
the deceitfulness of the wicked
world.

Trust, shall I?
Able you to DESTROY my core,
as MANY have done before.

Forgive?
That unspeakable PAIN…
I CHOOSE not to feel.

My broken pieces?
lying in the COLD ground…
Still I have so many DOUBTS.

WHO found who?
my throat stuffed with thoughts,
my voice? silenced FOREVER MORE.

I Hate You,
I hate you from the womb
of hell itself to
the gates of paradise.

I hate you with every tear and with every breath I take, with every
beat, every thought and with
the last sparks of this wounded soul.

I hate you with the little force
that this hollow nobody holds.
I hate you,
despite you,
repudiate you.

Such HIGHTS reaches the hate I feel
that only with your despair
I shall find my peace.

Once I met a boy
who inspired me to believe again
who fed my desires and most inner hopes

Then I had to let him go
´For it was consuming my soul
To have him and to not have him AT ALL.

Play, play piano boy, play
Let your thoughts with the melody fade away
Close your eyes and lose yourself.

Make of your music my tracking trace,
to find next to you my rightful place.
but keep your eyes close till I say.

Because as long as they’re close
you won’t tell me to go away.

tears won’t fall although I’m sad
the breezee may face me but I won’t cover
glasses turnish when I pass by,
is this cold coming out of me?

voiceless screams of anger and fear,
come out of my mouth
I’m not dead though, icy breaths of air feed my cold crystal heart,
covered by frigid sharply rock,
this heart can hardly beat.

I lock myself up in my room
where snowflakes fall
and anything I may touch covers in white and blue
and I wonder now,
How may I thaw my frozen heart?

Love...
For me it has been like years since we last dance.
The last time I saw your face, looking at my face.
The last time I looked into your eyes, looking at mine.
Emotions, beliefs, memories, thoughts and feelings.
Sunken, burned, lost, withered and died,
in forever cold darkness.
Love, Oh Love¡¡
I have lost the right to call you Love,
I have lost my right to look, glance and speak to you.
My right to take your hand, taken away, like my right to shared my laugh with you.
Love...
I will warn you now that,
I haven not lost hope,
I wish to find you someday...again
Like we always used to meet,
In the long way down to misery and boredoom.

Do I know you??
Do you still know me??
It is now, in this dark cold hour, that I miss you the most.
I have dreamed about you,
I have think of you,
I have wish for our eyes to meet once more.
And I pray....
that you know that even from the distance I still look after you.
From your tears, I will always try to save you.