Pain
what a famous word.
We all use it as it belongd to us, but
What does it really mean?

You lost me and
I lost you.
And all that is left are memories.
Bad and good.

Now that I know that I never stopped,
you have found your own happiness
and although I want to try...
I know it is just...

I cling to hope to survive,
and it hurts, but this pain
keeps me alive, it keeps us alive.

I know now, that
for as long as it hurts
this love, it's still real.

Love is a battle
that will test you;
test how much can your heart resist
the deceitfulness of the wicked
world.

Trust, shall I?
Able you to DESTROY my core,
as MANY have done before.

Forgive?
That unspeakable PAIN…
I CHOOSE not to feel.

My broken pieces?
lying in the COLD ground…
Still I have so many DOUBTS.

WHO found who?
my throat stuffed with thoughts,
my voice? silenced FOREVER MORE.

I Hate You,
I hate you from the womb
of hell itself to
the gates of paradise.

I hate you with every tear and with every breath I take, with every
beat, every thought and with
the last sparks of this wounded soul.

I hate you with the little force
that this hollow nobody holds.
I hate you,
despite you,
repudiate you.

Such HIGHTS reaches the hate I feel
that only with your despair
I shall find my peace.

Once I met a boy
who inspired me to believe again
who fed my desires and most inner hopes

Then I had to let him go
´For it was consuming my soul
To have him and to not have him AT ALL.

Play, play piano boy, play
Let your thoughts with the melody fade away
Close your eyes and lose yourself.

Make of your music my tracking trace,
to find next to you my rightful place.
but keep your eyes close till I say.

Because as long as they’re close
you won’t tell me to go away.