If i would give you one thing in life i would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes and by that time you would realize how much you mean to me . I have this feeling that is growing daily inside me its like a seed that is nourished by the water of our love. . Between our laughs our long night talks the intimacy we have  the chills i get when i hear your words our stupid fights and jokes. I fell in love with every single part of you, and i will still love you with every step on my way . You seduced my mind and found my soul and by now I'm yours forever May god bless your beautiful soul and your loving heart and Keep you mine forever and ever.

To the past owner of my heart. I am writing this for you.
You gave me happiness in my darkest days.

You showed me starts in the middle of the day.

You showed me how life could be easier and how it goes on.

This is my desperate brain telling you good bye .

Good bye with a deep sorrow in my heart.

Good bye my lover good bye my guard.

Good bye my happiness.

Good bye my life.

A new 365 days a new 2015 a new me without you..

Good bye.

I stooped missing you.
I stopped needing you.
My heart learned to stop aching.
My mind stopped worrying.
I am healing quickly.
But the problem is... no one is filling the space I have. No one is giving me that feeling that I felt with you. I am still lost in mind, drowning in thoughts. Oh god heal every broken piece of my broken tired heart.

Why cant I let go if whatever bothers me.
Why cant I let go of a past that will never come again.
Why cant I sleep for at least one day with empty mind and free soul.
Is it me trapped in my past? Or is it life getting harsher and harsher day by day. God oh  god heal my broken heart, my trapped soul, heal my mind. Heal me from all the pain that is breaking me apart.

My heart is aching from agony
My memories are breaking me
My body is aging
everything around me is missing something, every place i go to holds a memory of you. I cant take it anymore, my days are all one color. My nights are harsh. I hug myself tightly everyday wishing upon a star praying for God wishing for something that deep inside I am sure its not coming back . My tears tend to drop every time your name comes out What do I do? Where do I go?  How do I  live? How do I adapt? Do I pray for a miracle or leave the days count?

How do I convince my heart.
How do I adapt my brain with the fact that your not here anymore. Everything is becoming soo hard. Oh lord cure my broken heart.

I can't actually tell how it feels, it's like a stone came and settled in the middle of my heart. The fact of you not being beside me is killing me. I miss you soo much. I miss your talks, I miss your jokes, I miss our daily arguments, I miss our outings, I miss our gatherings, I miss it all. You have left a huge empty space in my heart. My eyes can no more handle my heavy tears. I still pray to God everyday that if we are meant to be for each other you would come back again and give me a chance to tell you how much you meant to me.