I could lose you
and it scares me
but
it might also be a relief.

There are so many reasons to stay
so many reasons to go

I just want to know
you miss me

Your eyes are so tempting
And your mouth as well
The things I would do
Just to have an hour alone with you

An hour alone
with nothing but
Screaming
Shouting your name
How you betrayed me
How you betrayed everyone around you
How you're burning so many bridges
You have more torn down
Than you do still standing and shiny
Than you do to build
You've given up on me
on us
on all of us

Maybe you thought this
Would be a poem about love
and passion
and holding each other
It's not...

but truthfully
it is.

this side of me hides
thankfully

if I didn't hide it from you,
you couldn't love me.

looking down
she writes her poems
clears her throat
breathes the smoke

takes a sip
smiles away
and tries to find
the words to say

my thoughts are safe
no where
except inside my head

when I write it
when I speak it
someone will always hear.

no one wants to know my thoughts.
no one wants to be in this head.

I used to be pretty

then I stopped starving myself

it rips my heart out
the thought of you leaving.

detatches
the trechea from my lungs
the stem of my brain

it scares the **** out of me