it's my fault
im sorry
that i wasn't there for you
I wasn't accepting to your dream
i lead you to think fondly of me
im sorry
I kept you up late at night
I said I missed you
I'm sorry I spoke the truth
I'm sorry i wasted your time
that I hugged you tight
that when I saw you I would smile
I'm sorry
is all that comes out

I am not full of sadism
it may seem like so
but don't people say go with the flow?
that's why I said what I said
but you didn't believe me anyway
in a year this won't matter to you
in 3 years we will both look back and laugh
we were naive
full of fear & and not full comprehension
of what was going on
of what we were doing
and how full of adulation we were
I could go back and change it
but we know that life would be vapid