do you feel better when you judge people
do you feel proud of yourself
do you feel happy
do you find it fun

if only you know how that person really feels
i don't think you would be able to sleep at night
i don't think you would be able to face the world

i often feel so insecure with my own self
with my own body
the shape of my body (but i don't have any shape)
the smell of my breath
the smell of my body
the way i dress up
are my pants, shirt, scarf and shoes suit well
the way i walk
does it attract the attention from the guy
does it cover my aurat well
do i dress up like a clown

(but i know that the insecurity won't be good for me, i won't feel safe to go out anymore, i won't have any confident to be in the crown anymore)