To be loved or Not to be Ever!!

its Been very long that I Felt the way i suppose to
soo long that I dnt even realize how should I actually Feel
strange I feel because people experience something for the first time to know how they should Feel
sad that I never had a first time nor the last to know how it actually Feels

No wonder God Didn't select Man to give life
As he could only Destroy and never give Life
Destruction is cruel so is He